Ruzanna is hungry.
Ruzanna is happy :D
Ruzanna just watched hadi scratch his butt, ew ew ew ew ew ew.
Ruzanna thought orientation was awesome and things panned out pretty smoothly, but people thought otherwise.
Ruzanna thought OGLs were AWESOME, for screaming and for getting the TA1s together.
Ruzanna thought SMs were AWESOME for conducting the games!
Ruzanna thought SCIP pwned their jobs today :D
Ruzanna thought mass dance went well, they learnt it DAMN fast.
Ruzanna is tired.
Ruzanna is scared she couldn't finish her homework.
Ruzanna thought, after watching the Singapore/Iran match that some of the iranian soccer players were good-looking (SERIOUSLY!!! OMG!!!)
Ruzanna had fun watching soccer with abang syazwan.
Ruzanna is relieved that mcs video is done, and hopefully she does not have to edit it anymore.
Ruzanna is hoping tomorrow's video will turn out fine.
Ruzanna is hoping people enjoyed today's video (PLEASE comment, i take constructive criticism :D just tag)
Ruzanna thinks the TA2s did a good job and shouldn't let anything anyone says get them down :D
Ruzanna is typing in the third person cause she realises not only is it funner, but typing ruzanna on the keyboard is fun.

And after writing all this, Ruzanna is still hungry D:

It. is. tomorrow.

Orientation is tomorrow. somehow, it's a bit surreal, seriously holidays 'sacrificed' (not really) for TOMORROW. and the videos have gotten mixed reviews, shit, i would have felt so wasted if the ta1s didnt like it. OH WELL!

ANYWAY, GOOD LUCK FOR TMRW EVERYONE :D WE CAN DO THIS! WE'VE BEEN WORKING OUR BUTTS OFF FOR THIS (even though i wish this were literal).

Hey!

bad. news. damnit.

SULTAN REUNION IS CANCELLED!!!!!!!!!!
LIKE WHAT!!!!!
IVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO IT FOR LIKE ONE YEAR NOW! ):

which means im free for march. book me now :D
haha, kidding, i am almost sure it's family time :D YAY!
i hope the whole bbbc goes to KL again.
or anywhere else, i dont really care, but BBBC must be there, armed with taboo.
or we could try charades again :D who would think of sad monkeys.
haha, OHANA <3

and theres ONE KL wedding :D this. means. awesome. funness. which also implies 6 people sharing one mirror.

OMG! RIQA'S COMING BACK SOON :D hahahaha, totally missed her.
haha, i feed off the drama of other people cause my life is dull. if it were a flatline it would look like this -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

okay, this was just a five minute post, need to chiong homework :D

2009, THE YEAR OF CHANGE

it was a year of big change :D

and there are many many people who i thank for helping me this year. all these nice nice people deserving credit for making my life just awesome.

1) My parents, haha, no doubt they were alway there for me :D

2) BBBC, entertaining times, good advice, haha nice imagination for the future. LOL whose wedding ah would have five people getting married in one day. or who's the one with having children at the same time as four other people. and seriously ALL the funny moments, i need to do a post on that. BASICALLY, i have fun when you all around and i feel much better :D we pwn. and i love you all loads.

PREDICTED REACTIONS:
Riqa: awwwww
Haziyah: (this is tricky, there are two reactions that could possibly happen) 1) EW. DISGUSTING, but secretly she is awwww-ing (2) awwww ILY too! hahaha haziyah shows affection at weird points of time.
Hanisah: if she baru bangun tidur there will be no reponse, haha but if she's normal i predict "HAHA, why RUZANNA SO WEIRD ONE!"
Hijanah: HAHA, emotionless and then go to youtube and watch random videos. HAHA BFF :D

3) Cristal, DUDE, you were my best friend from TKG (this may be one sided, haha, thats why ive never really brought myself to say it) and though we're from different schools now, youre still there for me, like in hell week. dude, this year changed a lot cause you weren't there with me in school, haha, that was a big change and i realise i depended on you a lot :D youre an awesome friend (: i hope ive been there for you just as much as youve been here for me! thanks man, for EVERYTHING! hope you come to TJ, haha even though i am super sure, you would go somewhere much better, cause you can :) LOL, if that's the case, go for it :D haha, youre such an over-acheiver :D but i pwn you in scrabble, except for the last game in facebook.

4) TERM1GROUP!: VALERIE WONG, FAITH!, XIEKE, YU QING. haha all part of my first few projects and entertainment in term one. hahaha, thanks guys! you all made term one funner for me. especially some random person beside me who would sing JOHANNA (a song about a stalker), haha, you made life entertaining! haha term one group is the most significant because it helped me adjust the most!

5) 1B, hahaha OUR CLASS IS AWESOME we even won that carnival day thingy! hahaha, i played the sunny side up, one round of captains ball and tugofwar. HAHA it was so fun :D our class just pwns! we rock, no, we rule :D ahahahaha you all made classes fun! hahaha and all the moments in between classes, rachel, tabitha, linying, abi, jasmine and loads loads more!

6) MALAY CLASS PEOPLE! haha aisyah, charmaine, shaleen and sabrina. hahaha we went through a lot, but it was fun. with all the songs we made, HAHA and the hand actions, and you gotta admit, DIKIR IS FUN :D

7) SKATING BUDDIES, hahaha even though it was just two times, GOAT, JINGWEN (awww) and SMURT! haha, it was really fun learning to skate, I WANNA SKATE SOON OKAY :D smurt smurt! hahahahaha, smurt, you are very funny and thanks for the train people! its in my bedroom now :D LOL, OH and i remember smurt came to my house to study but in the end we just ate chips in the attic, HAHA so fun!

8) NU, THE BEST OBS GROUP EVERRRRRRRRR! hahahaha, got to know people i didnt know earlier on, brenda iynhuii sarah and even piggy zihan. HAHA, i remember the KAYAKING lol, the HIKING, the sleeping in tents, THE GOSSIPING IN TENTS (certain tents, HAHAHA), THE WILD BOARS which turned out to be snores, INOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!, hahaha twitchy one-eye, 24 ROCKS, LOL, MY OWN SONG, bleagh food, climbing weird things. and i got closer to people like wheeling and aisyah and charmaine. OBS was seriously awesome and NU made it just as awesome!

9) LANIGHT BACKSTAGE PEOPLE! hahaha, GOAT, VEN AND TABITHA! hahaha super fun. and since i read it in the goats blog, im suddenly remembered my weird dream. which wasnt that funny, it was weird. REALLY REALLY weird. HAHAHAHA, anyway, after LA night, we continued with study groups haha with goat, ven and ME :D haha, it was really productive aside for some moments like the DUM DUM DEE DUM moment cause SOMEBODY thought it would be funny to listen to two separate earphones at once. hahaha, basically study group made studying slightly funner :D THANKS GUYS! hahaha and goat who came to my house to study and we ended up skyping with ven. hahahaha!

10) ENTERTAINMENT COMMITTEE: TITUS, TABITHA, RACHEL, ZIRUI and CHUBIN! haha thanks for putting up with me as your psycho head, orientation will pwn! hopefully :D

11) ECOMM MENTOR: hahaha JINGWEN! LOL, thanks for the mentoring and sending me all your old documents they really helped! hahaha, and all the MADtv at the start, seriously spas! OHOH! and helping me with my speech the previous night. THANK YOU!

12) EXCO! HAHA! phnagzihan, natasha, sabrina (TOP 3 SIALAH!), michelle, tian li, gloria! HAHA, we are EPIC! LOL, and you guys have made holidays full of work and fun :D THANKS GUYS! i know you all have been working your butt off (my butt is still there though), but its all going to be worth it for orientation! sorry if ive done anything wrong or made anything difficult! just a few more days to go! JIAYOU!

13) SIBLINGS, ahahhaa, you make life colourful!

14) softballers! hahaha thanks guys for throwing with me at the start of the year, next year you all will be playing for bdv, you defintiely have my support! GOOD LUCK KAY! aahahah and thanks preya for talking to me at random times of this year, hahaha, it always makes me happy when i talk to you. whether its about AI (its ALWAYS about AI) or ellen (NEXT YEAR WE CAN TALK ABOUT BOTH!) haha, its just been really awesome!

15) MYSELF! for me to know and for you to find out!

i hoped i covered everyone! but i love you all :D hahah, 2009 was a whirlwind and everyone was there in it :D hahah im sleepy i dont know what im talking about! but thanks for everything!

HEY!

Today was interesting,first i got amused then i got annoyed then i got happy then i got irritated then i got happy and now i just dont care :D

Why I got amused:

1) Hadi is very funny, i played this 'prank' which i thought would have been an epic fail, but turns out, it worked.

*Hadi stands in front of fridge (so typical), which means the opened door is on his side*
*i kick hadi from under the door*
Hadi: OI!
*i kick again, thinking he knew*
*Hadi turns around and sees bibik on the opposite side of the table*
Hadi: huh? bibik dari sana macam mana bibik boleh tolak kerusi sampai ke hadi? (huh? bibik, youre all the way there how can you push the chair to hit me?)

HAHA, i was outside when i heard this, BUT IT WAS FREAKING FUNNY! he thought bibik had pushed a chair while sweeping the floor till it hit his leg, EVEN THOUGHT it was like impossible cause he was so far away from bibik. BUT WAIT, it gets better.

Ruzanna: Hadi, what happened?
Hadi: bibik hit the chair by accident and hit me.
Ruzanna: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHA (i swear i burst out laughing, like crap)
Hadi: huh, why you laughing? (he hasnt made the link, why would i be laughing like a mad pig for no reason)
Ruzanna: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

and he still didnt geddit.

but after i calmed down i told him how dumb he was. this happened at about 4pm when i came down take a break after editing videos for 2 hours

2) I got annoyed cause people kept saying im not doing anything. im watching tv, and nadh comes down and says she thought i got a lot of work to do, so why am i watching tv? ): apparently i dont deserve a break. and it sucks cause i do my work on the third storey which no one ever goes to. then i go to the first storey to watch tv, and everyone sees me there so they all think i never do work :S but then again they were the ones who asked me to pon ogl camp because i was sick. i was sick, but i still had to go, cause there were stuff i had to do.

3) watched kungfun panda with hadi before he left for solat jumaat, debated about jackie chan :D i lost, jackie chan IS the voice of the monkey dude.

4) i got annoyed again because my dad says 'see, youre watching tv. i thought you got a lot of work to do.' i do. but at that point in time, if i edited another video, i would go blind. BUT its okay, i didnt say anything. 29 videos edited. out of this, 7 edited today.

WTHHH, i realised my prediction did come true:

On the 19th of December 2009 I wrote:

'And i have a prediction:

At the end of the month, i would still have tons of work to do, and they would be saying: 'Who asked you to laze around?' '

and i guess i was right. im sorry, but no matter how much work i have, this is still the holidays, and no one can tell me i am freaking not allowed to enjoy my holidays, i hate holiday hw. NO ONE should tell me that i havent worked this holiday because i have ): ive worked harder then i ever have during a holiday, and i know there are more people who have more work than me, im just saying, i did work. ALSO, people are allowed to take breaks, i didnt say anything when nadh took breaks during her As why should she be able to tell me i dont deserve breaks. just because youre much smarter and thats why you deserve breaks doesnt mean im not entitled to breaks just because im stupider and i have to work much harder than you to acheive something that is still beneath you.

i dont care what people think anymore! DAMNNIT!

On another note, even though this sounds sad, im actually quite happy i played this game which was freaking mindboggling while i was on a break.

i deserve breaks. but i admit, that holiday hw is not as done as it should be. and that i am screwed, but not because i take breaks. taking breaks allow me to rest and come back more ready.

SUCKS.

It's 2010

2009 was a good year and it matched up to 2009, and let's just say 2009 was an awesome year. But I was a bit emotionless when i flipped through the different channels watching all the different countdowns.

But i was happy cause i was eating ice cream while doing so!

Anyway, today while playing bowling azri named me Hugh. WITHOUT me telling him to. Is that COOL or what.

So basically HEY 2010, BYE 2009 :D

Firstly,

screw the emo post two days ago, dont know what i was thinking, im perfectly happy with who i am :D especially with these past few days, it has been freaking fun. and im a BIIIIIIT tired, but it's okay!

basically,

SLEEPOVER WAS FUN! (HAAHAHA PWNED)
OGL CAMP WAS FUN!

COUSINS ROCK SAD MONKEYS!!!
TA1'09 ROCKS!
EXCO ROCKS THE MOST!
ECOMM ROCKS TOO :D
OGLs ROCK!
SMs ROCK!
SCIP ROCKS!

WATER WARRIORS PWNED!

Homework doesnt though.

Even though we all slept at 4:30am on tuesday night, i got up and got high in ogl camp :D HAHA, leaving SOME PEOPLE wondering where i had gone, PANDAI RIGHT, sleep until dont know what time, dont even realise i was talking to you in the morning! HAHAHAHAHA! okay, CHARADES was freaking funny. ESPECIALLY hanisah's arab condom! HAHAHA!

IGNORE the last post, haha. maybe it's cause i was sick and all the emo-ness got caught up to me cause i thought i could have died. HAHA! okay just dropping in, taking a break after editing some stuff, gonna edit more later.

a few highlights in my life so far :D haha, if you care to read!

SATURDAY:

RAN! haha, yay! I RAN :D LOL then after that gymmed with ayah and nadh. YES, nadh is fitter than me -.- so what, that has always been the case.

Then after that went home, then went to hanis and ziyah and hijanah's house with nadh and az and cassim and watched PARANORMAL ACTIVITY! haha, it was okay :D i liked it, freaky but cool and scary.

then after that caught a midnight movie, watched sherlock holmes with nadh, azri, mami and cassim. haha, IT WAS COOL. jude law and robert downey jr are so awesome together. HAHA, AWESOME MOVIE but not as awesome as avatar (YES, i am caught in the avatar rage!)

SUNDAY:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPAH! THANKS FOR THE FOOD AND HAPPINESS YOU HAVE BROUGHT TO OUR FAMILY :D

Had a small celebration which was nice. everyone came :D then watched singapore idol :D where i really didnt care who won! haha, and me and hijanah kept insisting charles was a nice person, BUT some people didnt wanna listen! I started getting sick sunday morning! gaaaaaaah.

MONDAY: OGL CAMP

HAHA fun-ness. but i was a bit sick, and yet i managed to be as enthu as i could. haha, it was fun :D and no one likes mass dance, NOT MY FAULT. AHHAHAHAHA, okay, im weird.

anyway, a few things im looking forward to next year:

1) Sultan Family Reunion, this always brings awesome times. LIKE seriously, the whole extended family in some hotel for 2 days one night, it couldnt get awesomer than that. I JUST love our family.
2) Kak Gia's wedding, A REASON TO GO TO KL! HAHA! YAYNESS!

im high tonight.

i think i was put on this earth to make people feel better about themselves. i make people go 'OH thank god im not her.' so when day by day i get put down even more, and i dont react, it just goes to show i accept it. and i do. i really do accept it when people laugh at me when im trying to look at the size of my butt in the mirror or something, cause it's really the truth, so i say it. but it's sad when all along you've been saying these things, and i accept it and people accuse me of seeking self-pity.

that can either make me sad or angry because, it makes me go 'then, what do you want me to do'

because they make it seem that i have nothing i should feel good about myself.
then i say that i have nothing i should feel good about myself.
then they say im seeking pity when all im doing is just agreeing with them

and next scenario:

they make it seem i have nothing i should feel good about myself.
then i say, 'Hey, i do have a right to feel good about myself.'
then they say i should accept criticism better.

this is not an emo post, seriously this is a dilemma.
like what should i do, seriously,
i am really sure there are some people out there who would ask why im suddenly so emo, or im just trying to attract attention. and i dont usualy care about what people think. but im sure people are thinking why would i post this, why would i post something so emo-ish, if i dont want people to think its emo. crap, i really dont know what im doing, i just needed to write this down, and maybe deep down inside im hoping some person would actually geddit. it's okay if you dont, really.

because the people who are close to me dont face this kind of situation, i dont know.

is it really wrong to love myself even though everything everyone could see about me is a flaw? (this is not emo, this is the truth, seriously :D)
because, i do like myself but im starting to not.

unless you really have something good (and honest, i would rather you dont say anything than some lie that might make me happy momentarily but in the long run i realise it isnt true and i would know that youre lying which means you are pitying me, which is something i really dont like) to say, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont bring this up, cause it will just make things really awkward and weird, just act like youve never seen this, and i'll do the same.

yeah, i have issues.

IM A PINBALL WIZARD

not! haha, i cant even play the virtual computer one, the one with a space theme.

anyway a few things i've established about malaysia:

1) it tends to make you speak more malay
2) it makes you freaking fat, cause food there is just awesome! EVERYTHING IS HALAL :D
3) it's not really the place that makes you have loads of fun, it's the company. DEFINITELY.
4) Movies there are really cheap. ON CDs (if you know what i mean, keningkening) and on screen.
5) Makes me sleep like a log (all holidays do.)

and i think this is the last day of sheer enjoyment without a care in the world. after this would be holiday homework and orientation :D HOLIDAY HOMEWORK go and die, damnit.

PICTURE TIME :D haha, i felt that my entries have been picture-less


My new favourite pose :D i look the coolest. :D


HIJANAH IS SO KENNETH FROM 30 ROCK :D and im looking like my usual cool self, while hanisah, who knows what hanisah is doing.

im not puffing my cheeks, this is the effect of baskin robins. hahahahah.

HAHA, awesome holiday! slept so much in johor, you wouldnt believe. that might be because the previous night i was doing actionplans till three. HAHA.

I was so sleepy that i slept the earliest (FIRST TIME EVER). Then dont know what happen with the rest. then i woke up at 1:15, and they all were gathered around my bed. HAHA, and i was so sleepy i was like half-awake. there was one point, if im not mistaken they were talking to me i just dozed off. then i woke up again and they tried talking to me again and i dozed off again. THEN:

Haziyah: fjdksjfkldsjfdsklfj (i forgot what she said, she was talking to me, i think)
Azri: She wont stay awake, she's just gonna fall asleep.

HAHA, and i did, i dont know what they said next i just plonked and fell asleep.

HAHA, aside from that, ive been watching a few things on youtube

1) UKULELE BABY! freaking adorable. WATCH, it will make you happy :D
2) SAM TSUI, total awesomness, he CAN FREAKING SING. i have his songs on repeat on youtube :D

This is one of the first times, i have no idea what im doing here. actually i do,

1) i cant sleep
2) i feel like talking to someone.

and that someone happens to be my blog.

So, basically i just watched THE BROTHERS BLOOM, haha, nice movie, different. the plot had so many twists and there was this blurred line between what was real and what was a con, haha, but at the end you jsut go 'OOOOOOOOOOOOOH, I GEDDIT'

It's really cool though, i really liked all the brotherly parts. stephen really really loved bloom, it was just so sweet, aaah brotherly bond.

ASIDE from that, today was okay, i managed to capture a bit of footage into the laptop. i hate the fact it takes so long.

I HONESTLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO WRITE.

usually being my nerdy self, when things happen that day, i would instantly go 'im going to blog about that' and then i go home, and i have something to blog about. I KNOW its really nerdy and pathetic, but it's fun for me. BUT THEN AGAIN, it might be really cool cause BARNEY STINSON (possibly the awesomest fictional dude EVER) has said 'IM going to blog about this' hahaha, or something like that, during random events of the day.

haha, im sleepy now and its only 1145, its an oppurtunity to fix my bodyclock.

Okay, just wonderful. my parents as well as nadh think im not doing any work. WONDERFUL.

This is because i was bored this afternoon, and decided to torment just slack around a bit.

And i have a prediction:

At the end of the month, i would still have tons of work to do, and they would be saying: 'Who asked you to laze around?'

And depends on my mood there are two ways i would react.

METHOD 1: Defend myself, saying i tried, over and over again. during this time, if nadh and azri are present, they would join in and somehow make me feel like i really havent done any work. and i'll just keep defending myself and maybe get frustrated and because of that i will probabl cry.

METHOD 2: Just shut up and listen (ive been doing this to a few of azri's insults, so i might be able to convince myself to do the same for this)

Im not saying ive been doing a lot of work this holidays, because that would be an outright lie. Im just saying that ive been doing both moderately. I bring play to work, and bring work to play (just ask riqa what i was doing till three in the morning, while i was supposed to be on HOLIDAY).

and while i am guilty of complaining and whining, im just saying, i do work.

EVEN THOUGH, work and holidays just does not go together. The smart baboon who came up with holiday homework is sick. just plain sick. a sadist too. such a jerk.

NEVERMIND, this is what happens when you live in singapore.

okok, ignore this post.

LONG AND BEEFY

HELLO! It's 5:04, its been about half an hour since i came back. and i am tired, but on the way back home random moments of the trip just popped into my head and i just couldn't help smiling to myself. AND THAT WAS WHEN! I knew i had to make a list :D but now im starting to forget a few things.

THINGS I LEARNT IN KL

1) diahorrea is not a nice way to start a holiday
2) sitting in a seven seater car with eight people inside is not very comfortable (BUT it was much better than the time we squeezed ten people in the car)
3) hafiz having diahorrea ALSO and sitting beside you is not very fun
4) not sleeping the previous night causing you to sleep in the car is helpful
5) music helps
6) hafiz lying down on you radiating heat when the car was really cold also helped :D
7) KL is very big
8) GHANY'S NEW SPECS MAKES HER LOOK FUTURISTIC
9) THE WAY YOU WALK DOES NOT DETERMINE YOUR SEXUALITY! HAHA RIQA, NONSENSE WOMAN.
10) HIJANAH IS MY BFF :D
11) Haziyah and riqa try to be BFFs but fail as compared to us :D
12) Apparently majority of girls like arrogant jerks. THIS PUZZLES ME and i beg to differ.
13) I LEARNT HOW TO PLAY THE "Eh, that guy ah..." game with riqa. HAHA
14) Haziq's hair is very nice to touch (haha, i stood there and stoked his little mat head for about 2 minutes straight)
15) Haziq does not like people to stroke his little mat head
16) NEVER attempt to sit on riqa's slippery chair at night
17) don't change your mind halfway when you decide to jump over a chain (especially when you are halfway in mid-air)
18) ???????????????????????? - is funny to HANISAH
19) MUST CLOSE THE DOOR WHEN YOU COME IN OR OUT.
20) when you come out of the car for a short while, you can leave the snack bag in the car.
21) PEOPLE WHO CAN DRUM ARE AWESOME. HAHAHAHAHA, SETH IS SO ADORABLE and FUN. and i totally love the way he sighs when you are doing something wrong.
22) do not lower your IQ for a small kid (because, from experience, they will just suddenly sass you and call you a 'loser')
23) malaysia tends to make me speak more malay.
24) I LOVE SETH! :D and he taught me how to play the drums!!!
25) don't let azri come near you when you are taking lessons from seth, he just ruins everything and makes seth think im stupid.
26) Newborn babies are nice, even though you're just holding them. HUD is so cute, he was hicupping while i was holding him, he's just so tiny.
27) WHEN you are walking beside riqa, dont read out signs (EVEN though your intentions were PURE and INNOCENT) like LONG and BEEFY which was supposed to be describing a burger but RIQA thinks otherwise, gross woman.
28) dont bother using your phone as a flashlight to read your book while everyone is sleeping in the dark, it just makes you annoyed cause the light didnt last long.
29) BBBC people live very sad lives.
30) OMCHICHI (however you spell it) is like a tribal game which makes you sound barbaric and stupid BUT apparently mats (haziq) really enjoy.
31) DONT bring pigs into the three word at a time story.
32) DONT FLASH YOUR NEIGHBOURS AHHAHAHAHAHAHA
33) HANISAH CANNOT SMIRK (i also cannot lah, but hijanah couldn't stop laughing at hanisah)
34) riqa shouldnt smirk as much
35) MUHRIZ LIKES ME WHEN I HOLD HIM.
36) seth pwns, he's entertaining.
37) Korean dramas are an effective way to pass time there.
38) Opah says i got no taste in guys -.- (whaaaat, she wants me to like one of her indonesian drama people. haha, and when i do like one, apparently it's the wrong one. HAHA, opah funny lah.)
39) WHEN in theatres don't turn to your left because you are unaware of things you might see such as two very tall, broad guys taking turns to rest their heads on the other one's shoulders
40) IT IS VERY HARD SHARING ONE MIRROR WITH 6 PEOPLE especially when people are getting ready to go out
41) CHOPE the toilet as quickly as you can by shouting 'IM BATHING FIRST' or what follows after when you are sharing one toilet with 5 other people
42) riqa's bed is very slippery, I DONT KNOW HOW, TWO nights IN A ROW, my pillow fell to the floor, making me sleep pillow-less and making my neck strained and painful.
43) opt to have your own blanket cause nadh snatches away the blanket but apparently i passed it on and did the same to haziyah HAHA
44) VICTORIA STATION rocks :D
45) the guy in beth cooper, his whole life is an FML, so SAD! but i think it turned out fine
46) DONT CLIMB, CLIMB
47) DONT TOUCH, TOUCH
48) do not narrate thoughts out loud in a theater such as our dear aunty's thoughts 'EH, IS HE GNA CRY OR IS HE GOING TO LAUGH?'
49) BASKIN ROBINS ROCK, IT IS FREAKING AWESOME
50) i love bbbc :D

IM MISSING KL.

BAAAS...KIN!

HAHA!

HEY!

ANYWAY, im a bit high now. im supposed to be editing a video, but ive decided to blog instead. BUT RIGHT NOW! some overdued tag replies!!! i love tags! :D:D:D

TAG REPLIES FOR DECEMEBER!

hahahahaha, im high, i know.

SABS: my answers are not retarded. they are perfectly sane :D haha, my answers are retarded says the woman who was doing dont know what at the kids corner :D LOL

Valerie wong: but i hope to be 65 to get 64 :D

Rachel: You bring back bad memories ): hahahah, mr hsi rocks :D LOL, see if you detect my tone. sincerity, sarcasm, irony LOL, just guess :D

Riqa: LOL, youve seen me. and youre downstairs now. cause you got angry and threatened to call hirzi and slammed the door. HAHAHAHA! YOU SUCK WOMAN, but you still think im awesome :D

Passerby: HEY PASSERBY! this is the first passerby ive ever had, so im happy. anyway, about the IP programme, if youre looking at it academic wise, mainly it's more projects (lots and lots more), more independent study and, yes, no olevels :D but end of year exams are major cause you may get kicked out of the programme if you dont meet their expectations. i think it's fun though. a bit stress, but fun :D you planning on coming?

Aisyah: hahaha, YEAH :D im all hyped up :D

Ayeshah: LOL! thanks :D but ive been a bit boring lately. LOL, dont know why

Hanis: hehehe, NEXT STOP KEMBANGAN BEEPBEEPBEEP.

Okay, i cut my hair. i look weird, i literally have no idea what ppl are gonna say on the 17th dec mass dance session. (im trying to slip that in to remind people :D)

haha, im actually almost done packing for tomorrow.

aside from that, you might wanna know that, constipation sucks.
and it hurts a lot.
and it makes you go to the toilet seven times in one hour

OKAY, just had the most high conversation with riqa last night. GOOD TIMES. hahahaha talking about old korean men in heavy make up all they way to the topic of my miserable sad life and we managed to fit new moon somewhere inside.

and i can definitely conclude that my life is sad cause no one is helping me make a decision about my braces D:< hahaha, except a few, thanks guys :D but i have concluded a few reasons why people wouldnt care

1) thye dont read my blog, so they dont know
2) they really don't care [which i dont blame them, cause it's just me wearing braces and im just like blowing everything out of proportion, when it doesnt even matter cause people in third world countries are starving ): and i feel bad even caring about this. ]
3) thye just don't care, haha, and im selfish enough to think that people would actually tell me what they think.

haha, so it's okay :D seriously!

aside from that, today at the airport, it was super retarded. PRODUCTIVE, but retarded. we covered all three terminals! haha, sabs and zihan are just out to disturb me, isn't everybody? :D LOL, brought my tablet for NOTHING, so both of you owe me icecream :D SET.

On a totally different random note, i watched ninja assassin last night. gore like nobody's buisness. i have to admit it was fun watching, but i recommend you all not to watch it WITH people like me who would like curl towards you and watch the gory scenes in between my fingers. but i liked the movie, exciting :)

BELLE

HEY GUYS!

It seems i can never get any work done, too many distractions. and i had the nerve to go to the library and borrow books, that would FOR SURE distract me. I SUCK.

anyway, aside from that, i've been listening to the same song in three different languages.

1) French
2) Russian
3) Italy
4) French (BOYBAND STYLE!)

It's from the awesome awesome musical, notre dame de paris. seriously, best musical ever. people were awesome, props were awesome even the 'calefares' were awesome (with every single one of them having rock hard abs. :D)

okay, basically the order of singing (in terms of characters) [except the boyband one]

1) Quasimodo (the hunchback if you watched the disney version)
2) Frollo (the something like 'adopted' father of quasimodo)
3) Phoebus (who is a total jerk, he wants esmerelda, but proposed to another woman, i think. it was hard watching the musical cause the subtitles were at the side, so i kept having to turn from screen to stage, and yet it was still FREAKING WORTH IT. haha, i didnt have to pay, but i wouldnt mind paying for it with my own money)

HAHA, okay, so these are the videos:

1) French: I think it's really awesome, they seriously like channel their emotions and character to the song, i've uploaded the one where they were performing during the performance itself, it's somewhere down there, so i thought i'd upload their 'concert' like thingy, that has some resemblance to il divo performances. the guy who starts sinigng first looks better without the hunchback and scars but i dont know why he looks like a buisnessman who would have an affair with his secretary. i bet he doesnt, and i bet he is a really nice guy, his voice is just freaking MANLEH and awesome. second guy reminds me of rowan atkinson, but all i can say is: SOLID VOICE. third guy...i really like the third guy. i like his voice too :D really soothing :D and can melt some people's hearts, you KNOW, that kind :D but in the musical he's a jerk. sweeter than the real life jerk but still he's just a nice guy who has...erm...temptations :S


2) Russian: It's really cool, started of a bit weird, not my kind, i bet the starting dude, can be in a metal/emo band. SERIOUSLY he would be a good lead. i bet he's already one. the Frollo, was okay. he sounds old, which is good, cause frollo is supposed to be old right??? ANYWAY, i thought it really suited the character. AND THE THIRD SINGER, ANOTHER ONE. WHY DO ALL THE PHEOBUS' have the most soothing power voices. SERIOUSLY. and he is definitely good looking, actually i wouldnt know for sure because his face is like always, half light (because of the fire) and half in the dark, because of the darkness. LOL, okay i dont understand what im saying, just watch yourself.



3) Italian: STARTS off with a more-soothing than a usual Quasi, but by 0:50 he starts going all husky, which makes me happy :D OKAY, aside from that, FROLLO. okay his singing is solid, okay-okay. BUT WHAT IS UP WITH HIS MAKE UP. hahahaha, okay okay, im being mean. AND OKAY PHOEBUS. ANOTHER POWER VOICE, can you believe, power-soothing. okay overall it was okay, but no one really stood out in particular.


4) French Boyband: SMASH!!! i like. okay they may not have unique solid voices. BUT, i find this cool :D haha, RIQA!!! OMG IF YOU SEE THIS BEFORE I TALK TO YOU ONLINE, YOU CALL ME. YOU CALL ME. I SWEAR RIQA, YOU CALL ME. CALL, WOMAN. this is all in caps, so YOU know it's impt. i tried calling you, but i dont know what to dial in front. WOMAN, CALL.




Okay, now i feel like ranking them :D [excluding boyband] haha, trust me, i love them all, but i wanna know which one i actually prefer, cause right now, theyre all awesome in my head.

BEST VOICE: (for the part of Quasimodo)

1) French (definitely)
2) Italian (well, it's about the same as the russian one, but in terms of my own preference, it would be the italian)
3) Russian (he's good, seriously. just not my kind. BUT HE'S AWESOME, seriously!)

BEST LOOKING: (for Quasimodo)

1) Russian (im not sure exactly, but in my head behind those fake scars, he might actually turn out good-looking) [OHMYGOODNESS! im in the middle of writing the frollo part when i saw them perform live, without their costumes, AND I WAS RIGHT :D he's actually blonde]
2) French
3) Italian (i just cant imagine!!! haha, sorry!)

BEST VOICE (for Frollo)

1) French (voice comes out strong at the start)
2) Russian (it's closer to the french voice, but honestly, theyre about tied up, this and italy)
3) Italian

BEST LOOKING (for Frollo)

-i choose to skip this, cause they all look about the same. and they're old.

Best Voice (for phoebus) [this is really hard.]

1) FRENCH (DEFINITELY, okay, it may be biased, but he is good.)
2) RUSSIAN (HAHA, not very far behind the French one, i think it's cause i prefer the french accent)
3) Italian (haha, he breathes, quite a bit. haha, i know it sounds stupid, but if not for the breaths, he would be tied with the russian one, which if not for the accent would be tied with the french one)

BEST LOOKING (for Phoebus)

1) RUSSIAN (definitely. RUSSIAN, and his hand actions are really cute, hahahaha)
2) French (came in really close, seriously)
3) Italian (sorry D:)

HAHA, okay FINISH. they're all really talented, seriously. and even though i think more than half of you all won't really care, but i actually had fun writing this, i knew i would.

and i know no one really cares who i think sings the best or is the hottest, so you shouldnt take any of this seriously. hahaha, theyre all super out of my league anyway, i actually don't feel worthy of commenting, but it's really fun. the notre dame de paris people really know how to pick their actors.

BASICALLY, if they ever come to singapore again, I HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend. no matter which country, but ive only seen the french one, and it was awesome :D

haha, okay i kinda spent one hour on this, with scrabble in between :D i should really be doing maths.

FINALLY, still on the subject of TO BRACE or NOT TO BRACE.refer to previos post to know what im talking about.

BRACE YOURSELVES

Hahahahahaha, okay, I just typed in the title.

went to the dentist yesterday with all the younger ones except hafiz. brought my maths to do while waiting for everyone but ended up trying to convince hadi to let me play assasin's creed on his ds, but failed, so i bugged ayah for hi iphone to play some racing game which managed to work.

played it halfway when it was my turn. dentist said i needed braces. JENGJENGJENGGGG.

she says its entirely up to me. boo, i hate decisions. SO IM GNA LET YOU ALL DECIDE, go tag tag on my tagboard. be anonymous for all i care :D i just wanna see what people say.

haha, aside from that, i jsut watched kung fu panda on hbo last night. still makes me laugh super hard, especially watching with hadi and hafiz. because i kept insisting hadi was poh (the panda) cause there was this resemblance. and hafiz kept insisting that he (as in himself, hafiz) was the evil tiger (i forgot his name, what was, tailong something like that). so during the battle scenes the were like laughing each other when the panda was pwning the tiger or when the tiger was pwning the panda.

it was damn lame, but really funny.

basically, kung fu panda, is an awesome movie. and my brothers are weird. speaking of weird, the weirdest one is coming home today :D

Prata

It's 9:15 in the morning, been awake since 6:30.

Just watched ugly betty and samantha who, while waiting for ayah to bring home prata :D

haha, okay, i should really start on maths ):

QUIZ ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE

haha! i'll do one for cousins/siblings/AUNTY first :D

1. Riqa
2. Azri
3. Nadh
4. Hijanah
5. Hanis
6. Ziyah
7. Abang
8. Amirah
9. Adilah
10. Hadi
11. Hafiz
12. Nashrah
13. Maisarah
14. Hugh Jackman (he's practically family.)

How did you meet 11? [Hafiz]
I didn't meet him till mami brought him home from the hospital cause it was SARs period at that time and my parents didn't allow us to meet him in the hospital.

What would you do if you had never met 8? [Amirah]
I wouldn't feel so fat. That doesn't really answer the question! but who cares, no one's gonna read this anyway. hahaha.

Would you date 6? [Haziyah]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! no, she's very scary. she'll whack me with a broomstick and slap me then i know. hahaha, BESIDES, im straight :D i dont think im her type anyway. HAHAHA!

Have you seen 9 cry? [Adilah]
NOPE

Would 3 and 13 be good friends? [Nadh and Mai]
haha, close enough.

Describe 1? [Riqa]
Guava Juice Powder and enjoys long walks on the beach and Korean dudes who are awfully sweet and will accept her even though ________________________. don't cry riqa, go to 1 Utama then cry at the laksa shop. say hello to coffee bean dude and tell him he's mean.

Do you like 14? [HUGH JACKMAN]
YES. very much :D:D:D

Do you think 4 is attractive? [Hijanah]
OF ALL THE PEOPLE TO COME UP FOR THIS QUESTION, if i say something she might as well stop at kembangan and stay there with riqa. -.- haha, and i'd be the 14th person to tell her that, so i'll let someone else do it.

When was the last time you talked to 2? [Azri]
start of this week before he left for cambodia. he's coming back tmrw! hahahah.

Would you date 12? [Nashrah]
ew gross. too bimbo. and im straight -.-

What is the best thing about 5? [Hanis]
Hahahahaha, she's very entertaining. OHOH! and she's lazy like me, so we can slack together :D

What would you like to tell 13 right now? [Maisarah]
What's for lunch?

What is the best thing about 12 ? [Nashrah]
When she sucks up, i can use it to my advantage

Have you ever kissed 12? [Nashrah]
before, when she was still a cute baby. then she morphed. and azri stopped calling her sweetie pie.

What's one of the best memory you have had with 3? [Nadh]
hahahaha when she left her wallet in the car which made some despo robber break the window of the car to take it when there was like 30 cents inside. and we had to buy a new window, not the best, but the funniest

What is 14's best talent? [Hugh Jackman]
THERE'S SO MANY! WHICH TO PUT. hahaha, TO BE THAT HOT AT THE AGE OF 40 :D

Is 11 pretty? [Hafiz]
AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAA. no. cute, yes.

What was your first impression of 2? [Azri]
ew. okay, maybe it wasnt that. in kindergarten he bullied me. in primary school he walked home with me and would stop by 7 11. in secondary school he would ignore my very presence and in JC, he picks out my every flaw and rubs it in my face :D oh well.

How long have you been friends with 11? [Mai]
Never. hahaha, 8 years as her sister though. today i annoyed her and she started beatin me up, it was fun though

Have you seen 5 in the last month? [Hanis]
hahaha, yeah, we watched 2012 together.

When was the last time you saw 1? [Riqa]
It's been too long. i was still in school and you went back to m'sia. hahahaha. MEAN. OKAYOKAY, i come soon.

Have you ever been to 7's house? [Abang]
HAHA, yeah all the family gatherings which lead to the TABOO. WHAT TOCK WHAT TOCK.

Are you really close to 6? [Ziyah]
Close enough for me to hate the jerk. he's very mean and inconsiderate and he's a coward who only dares to do thing through a medium where he is not face to face with a person. GO BEDOK INTERCHANGE. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Would you give 9 a hug? [Adilah]
SURE WHY NOT? *hugs*

Do you know a secret about 3? [Nadh]
UNFAIR! only azri does, they have this weird bond where they tell each other stuff and exclude me from it ): it used to be the three older ones, then they kicked me out -.- SO NOW, i have hadi :D

What's your friendship with 7 like? [Abang]
hahaha, esteem-crushing. and it's just one-sided. even the dolphin seeing is one sided. he gets to see dolphins, and my esteem gets crushed.

How do you know 3? [Nadh]
SIBLING person. sister :D

Does 8 have a bf/gf? [Amirah]
HOHOHO! haha, i dont know.

Have you ever wanted to smack 4 in the face? [Hijanah]
hahaha, no. i bet she wants to slap me everytime i whine :D haha HIJANAH MENTION.

Has 12 met your mom? [Nashrah]
haha, YES, to know how, read your textbook on reproduction.

Is 1 your best friend? [Riqa]
hahaha, can qualify lah. same package as therapist.

If 14 had $100 what would they spend it on? [Hugh Jackman]
im sure 14 has more than that. and he would spend it on claws.

What's your best memory of 2? [Azri]
HAHA. when he said he loved me. JUST to prove a point.

Have you travelled anywhere with 10? [Hadi]
HAHA, everywhere. he didnt go disneyland either, he wasnt here yet.

What is the last thing you did with 10? [Hadi]
sat on him and called him an elephant. then he says my butt is as big as one, but he still let me ride anyway :D

When did you meet 6? [Ziyah]
RIOT SQUAD YEARS and all the other weird clubs.

How did you meet 8? [Amirah]
haha, when i was born. but at that time she, nadh and adilah were really close and wont let me go into the shared room when nadh was playing with them.

Where would 4 travel to if given a free trip to anywhere? [HIJANAH]
UK. DEFINITELY UK, so that she could watch a mcfly CONCERT. i havent been more sure.

How close to 5 are you? [Hanis]
haha, close, saw her EVERYDAY last year.

Would you go on a road trip with 9? [Adilah]
INVITE THE REST OF THE PPL ON THE LIST AND HELL YEAH (minus the four younger siblings)

im bored, so i'll do another quiz (even though i should start on another piece of maths homework. OH WELL, we can't all have what we want)

I mean, teachers tell us that we can't all have what we want, so to further re-emphasize it, teachers can;t have all they want also. if they want our homework, some of us shouldnt give it to them, right, right? I VOLUNTEER!

okay, im kidding. i DID NOT say that. no one is allowed to quote me.

HAHA, okay, quiz time.

Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
yeah, i'd do it for a random stranger if someone did it with me. because my hair is not nice to begin with. so im not really sure if anyone would want my hair. but i would give it :D

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
then i'd be really shocked cause, i thought there was only one way to get pregnant (a way that is totally out of the question cause it's just not right at this point of time). and then i'll ask him if there were any other ways it could have happened, like maybe i drank water from a country who can reproduce asexually.

or i'd wait for ashton kutcher to come in and say YOU JUST GOT PUNK'D. then i'd ask him to sign my t-shirt :D

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
haha, i don't think anyone has hurt me that bad. they hurt me by not coming to optional mass dance sessions, hence leaving me all alone. KIDDING. yeah, sure i am :D

Did you apologize to the the one person that you hurt the most?
im not really sure. who did i hurt the most? OKAY, if it's YOU readin this right now, IM SORRY for whatever i did, im sure i didnt mean it. and if i did, there probably was a good reason behind it, like maybe you were mean to me, so i take back my SORRY.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
haha, better than anyone thinks. i bet you all think i feel a certain way, but im not :)

Are you wasting your time on someone?
im not sure if it's a waste of time for now.

Explain the last time you threw up:
It was in the middle of term 3, the physio systems project was due the next day. i was ready to pull an allnighter with tabby, when i felt this weird pain, so i puked in the toilet bowl, and had gastric flu the next two days, but what's new.

Last thing that made you cry:
SAVING PRIVATE RYAN, but it was a good feeling to cry in that movie, cause it had a happy-ish ending, though a lot of ppl died.

Do you have a bad temper?
depends, when im with my family i tend to be more hot tempered, maybe cause theyre the same with me. :D

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
i'll be 25. hahaha, i don't know, ask opah, i think she knows more than me.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
6 ): all people ive met before

How often do you think about suicide?
NO! OMG. AND IF YOU ARE THINKING OF IT, PLEASE DONT.

What is your deepest fear?
God, some of you will understand this, and some of you may not. But think of it this way, God has the power to do anything to you. And it's just a feeling i have.

Do you REALLY love all your family?
HAHA! i actually really do. sure they piss me off, make me cry, never let me use the tv, BUT they are funny people when you put the together.

What do you want to believe in?
THERE CAN BE MIRACLES, IF YOU BELIEVE. i don't know. but i believe in lots of things. but then again, some i shouldnt be believing, azri told me a bunch of stuff which i believed, even though i shouldnt, cause it's lame and untrue.

Do you have a secret crush on someone?
QUESTIONS LIKE THESE ARE STUPID, i feel like these kind of questions if you answer, it's like kena pwned by the question. if it's a secret, people wouldnt put it here. hahaha, if there's a loophole to this theory, it would be damn embarassing.

Are you proud of who you are?
haha, there are times. BUT there are also times where i just hate myself.

Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
OMG, yeah. i thought it was a weird feeling, but apparently im not the only. NOT THE ONLY ONE FEELING LONELY, is it an oxymoron, i think it is, but im too lazy to think.

What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?
im not sure. has anyone ever done anything that bad to me, that its unforgiven. haha, i dont think so.

You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
you can have all my franks. and dont marry azri.

...to your worst enemy?
marry azri. (HAHAHA, im so mean. but he's mean to me too!!! you should hear the things he says or the things he influences hadi and hafiz to say)

Freedom or safety?
FREEDOM!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO! until i get hurt, then safety.

Think of a random person, and give them a message here, no names:
hey hey, chill, okay! i know youre stressed, but it's all gonna turn out fine :D HOPE YOU'RE DOING FINE NOW :) haha, and i can't wait too! [haha, i bet youre all wondering who.]

Has a song ever made you cry?
nope, it has got me frustrated though. i cant find the second page to the song im learning on the piano.

A book ever made you cry?
yeah, damnnit. THE LAST PART of KITE RUNNER, damn touching. haha, and the dave pelzer book, his mum is really mean to him.

Is the world crumbling to pieces?
im afraid so, but we'll wait till 2012. haha, im kidding.

For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:
IM AWESOME and you all KENA PWNED BY ME :D

MISSING PEOPLE

I just wrote a whole long post about missing people, but then i deleted it, cause it got a bit to emo for my blog.

but the thing is, im not emo, i just miss some people.

haha, in your face people who think i have no emotion/heart whatsoever.
like i always tell azri, im deeper than people think, but people dont have to know that.

i hope all the people im missing right now are safe in whatever country they are at now :D and hope theyre having loads of fun.

BOREDOM + Not Wanting to Do Holiday HW = QUIZ on BLOG

WAZZUP LUCK PEOPLE! today i'll make you life a bit more interesting by posting a quiz. a very long quiz, meaning, you'll learn a lot about me.

(found it on facebook, a lot of people were doing it.)

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: WATER. as in plain water. from the fridge.
2. Last phone call: haha, mami. asking me to buisness card something to her. just a few seconds ago, i typed buisness card, as bus card. why do i keep mixing them up.
3. Last text message: cikgu saying it was okay to push something to a later date :D
4. Last song you listened to: I CANT REMEMBER! ever since im using mami's slightly older phone i can't find the earphones that fit into it. IT'S SOME NOKIA BRAND WHICH USES SOME PORT THING THAT'S CIRCULAR, (HINTING TO PEOPLE WHO HAVE IT). But, that's not really hinting anymore. OH WAIT, the last song i heard was myself playing the first 6 bars of mariage d'amour, cause the seventh onward is on the second page which i cannot find. and, no, im not capable of sightreading it. only azri can do things like that, and he's in cambodia now. i choose to call what i play on the piano music :D haha, azri can beg to differ all he wants, but he's in cambodia.
5. Last time you cried: haha, while watching saving private ryan on the bus back to singapore. SAD. that was really sad. three times in a 2hour 43 minute movie. ): anyone wanna watch it with me again.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope, i havent even dated anyone once, what more twice :D
7. Been cheated on: i think you need to be dating someone to get cheated on. BUT there was this shop which totally cheated my feelings. it was selling this mechanical pencil for like what, 2 bucks, and i bought and i saw the exact same one in the bookshop that cost, like what, 50 cents less.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: haha, i've kissed hafiz (my youngest brother) and he whacked me pretty hard. so kinda regretted that, but it was fun.
9. Lost someone special: many special people ):
10. Been depressed: Actually, i was about to pu a straight NO cause i thought i was always happy, but then i realised i did have a phase.
11. Been drunk and threw up: it's haram to be drunk :D so i dont drink. at all. as in alcoholic drinks -.-

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. RAINBOW! as in the paddlepop rainbow
13. Rainbow! as in the normal rainbow!
14. Blue (haha, all time favourite)


THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: YEAH, lots of them. TA rocks. i saw this during OBS and many many many days of fun!
16. Fallen out of love: haha, i havent fallen in to be able to fall out. but i hope i dont.
17. Laughed until you cried: TOO MANY TIMES. OMG, i still remember the time where i was JUST remembering the RIQA/ENRIQUE incident and i wanted to tell the story to abang, amirah and adilah but i couldnt cause i was laughing so hard till i cried. and it wasnt even during the thing itself, it was JUST by remembering it. HAHA, me and riqa have lots of crap time. WITH the PAYA LEBAR, EUNOS (your nose) and KEMBANGAN! haha, okay, you probably wont get it. haha.
18. Met someone who changed you: I think many people changed me. im such a push over. which is confusing, cause there was this point of time where azri was insulting me, and i just accpeted it. and he said i should stand up for myself (okay, he phrased it in a way that it was still an insult by saying that i dont even stand up for myself). he probably will deny it, but i remember cause i was shocked, cause usually he doesnt like the way i take criticism. so i THINK i get changed pretty easily. BUT NOT IN A BAD WAY. im still me :D (and that's not bad -.-)
19. Found out who your true friends were: EVERYONE who is my friend is a true friend, cause i dont think theres such a thing as a fake friend. except my franks, theyre fake, cause they dont really have lives to begin with.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: haha, yeah, but it's okay :D
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: im assuming that since this is a facebook quiz, that they are referring to facebook friends. my parents are my friends, and ive kissed them. haha, and i hugged hannafi too, before sending him back to NZ. HAHA, he was super shocked and i think a tad bit disgusted (but i bet he secretly likes it)
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: most of them :D
23. How many kids do you want to have: I want a big family, i mostly enjoy mine, so my kids should enjoy a big family. (i know im overlooking the pain right now, but im only fifteen, i can talk crap)
24. Do you have any pets: SIX SIBLINGS! WHEEEEEE! why are both these questions family related.
25. Do you want to change your name? it's a cool name, like i havent personally met anyone who as it, but i have met a guy called rozan which is a 'na' (and change one alphabet in his name) away from my name, so no i would not change my name, but i would change a certain song. haha, some of you might know what im talking about.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: HAHA! accepted a watermelon and many other things. ALSO, i went to Kl for a weekend trip and used my brithday to get everything i want (which was mainly food :D)
27. What time did you wake up today: 6:30
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: haha ASLEEP. ive been sleeping earlier than usual.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: ORIENTATION! seriously, it's gonna be KICKASS (mind my language, but i cant find another word for it)
30. Last time you saw your Mother: At about 12:30, when she so nicely picked me up from school cause i was carryin a lot of barang-barang.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: IM NOT GOING TO GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN. i may be happier there, but im okay here.
32. What are you listening to right now: i type realy noisily.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I WANT TO! tom fletcher from mcfly. he is freaking awesome, and has an unbelievable range, from really high in transylvania to his really high in star girl. and he likes star trek, disney and he watches heroes. :D
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing really, im doing what malays do best. LEPAK ONE CORNER, that corner being the corner of my bedroom, on my bed, with my laptop.
35. Most visited webpage: haha, tv-dome, to watch my tv shows. and BLOGGER. and i guess a bit of tom's twitter. and recently NEIL PATRICK HARIS' twitter, which aisyah found :D ohoh, and FML, introduced by azri. he introduces me to the weirdest stuff on the internet.
36. Whats your real name: AGENT AWESOME.
37. Nicknames: haha, a lot, just look at my previous quizze this must be like the 17th time im answering this question
38. Relationship Status: haha, awesome. (okay single, dreaming about hugh jackman, im kidding. sure i am :D)
39. Zodiac sign: is this they year you're born in, or is it your star sign. so i im just gna put both. DOG and ARIES
40. Male or female?: THE better among the two. (female, just in case you're misguided)
41. Elementary?: FENGSHAN PRIMARY SCHOOL
42. Middle School?: TKGS, haha awesome home ):
43. High school/college: SAY T, T, SAY TJ, TJ. OKAY, TJC :D
44. Hair colour: BLACK
45. Long or short: this is a very subjective thing. but to me it's longer than usual.
46. Height: 155.5 WHOOOOOOOOOOOO! i grew one cm since last year.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: haha hugh jackman. zachary quinto.
48: What do you like about yourself?: haha, my ability to make aleyna smile. haha (okay, this was just once, but im still gna call it an ability, cause she is the most adorable baby girl ever) she'll be one next year. SO CUTE :D
49. Piercings: haha. NONE :D MEOW
50. Tattoos: haha, nope.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty, BUT BUT BUT, in class when im bored (BUT STILL LISTENING, mr hsi, if you're reading this) i try writing with my left hand and i can actually read it. okay, i may be the only one who can read it cause i knew what i wrote. SO WHAT im awesome.

FIRSTS:
52. First surgery: APPENDICITIS, the removal of my appendix. it took longer than usual cause it burst inside me. haha, lazy wanna explain here, but let's just say i could have died. SERIOUSLY. haha, ask me online, kinda lazy to explain here.
53. First piercing: NONE!
54. First best friend: BABY ALL-GONE. hahahahhahahahahaha. creepy doll.
55. First sport you joined: SOFTBALL is the pwnage. well there was something in pri sch, but it was embarassing.
56. First vacation: i dont know, probably some trip to KL. BUT i do remember (okay i dont remember, but people keep telling me) that my parents left me and brought nadh and azri to DISNEYLAND D:< (it's okay, im sure i had more fun at home as a baby trying to open my eyes. and laughing and not very funny faces people made at me)
58. First pair of trainers: haha, i think it was P3, cause nadh and azri got one the year before, and i wanted one. haha, it was blue and white and i used it for my primary school sports day.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: AIR. but i was eating chicken rice just now.
60. Drinking: AIR. but i was drinking wated just now
61. I'm about to: go and pray, but i'll finish this first while waiting for the time.
62. Listening to: i type very noisily.
63. Waiting on: THE WORLD TO CHANGE! (it's a song, i think. but the world should change. i mean we cant live with war everyday, i hope my generation knows better :D)

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: YEAH! theyre so cute! i cant take it :D
65. Get Married: haha, in order to get question 64.
66. Career?: :S im probably the only person my age who is walking around aimlessly in life.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: well, if you wanna eat better, then lips. if you wanna see better then eyes. HUH? WHAT? what kind of question is this.
68. Hugs or kisses: OH i think i get it, it's a 'significant other' set of questions. WHAT, saylah! alamak. hahah, okay, i honestly don't know HAHA.
69. Shorter or taller: A BIT TALLER THAN ME, preferably not too tall.
70. Older or Younger: i dont know hahaha. should be > or = to my age. HAHA ive been doing quadratic inequalities. haha, but not that i mind younger. okay i do. cause all the younger ppl i see are like hadi's age, and theyre weird. weirder than me.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: I wouldnt know
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: i bet the YOUNG hugh jackman has nice arms and a nice stomach.
73. Sensitive or loud: hahaha. i dont know, i think everyone has this sensitive and loud side, they just choose to show one side more. haha, i tend to show my loud side more, but when im alone, i can be pretty sensitive. haha but you wouldnt know. maybe some people would know. azri and nadh made me cry before. so did coach. but i think they all meant well (except azri. and nadh)
74. Hook-up or relationship: what is a hookup, in my head i just said that in a french accent, dont know why.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: TROUBLE MAKERS ARE FUNNY.


HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger: nope. that would be weird, and i probably would get a restraining order. im waiting till i get a little older before i get involved with the law
77. Drank hard liquour: ASTAGHFIRULLAH (haha, yes hijanah, i dont know how to spell the end) i dont drink liquor cause it's haram and bad for your health (which is probably the reason why its haram :D)
78. Lost glasses/contacts: THIS QUESTION KENA PWNED, cause i dont need both. hahahah, im afraid i would jinx it now.
79. Sex on first date: this is haram too. even if it wasnt, this would be gross.
80. Broken someone's heart: nope, i dont think so :D
There's no question 81, so i decided to add my own question: 81. Are you AWESOME? well, yes i am :D
82. Been arrested: hahahha, NO. or have i? (like how cosmo says it. DAMN, he's cool.)
83. Turned someone down: haha, nope. i just rememberes the song you said no. haha, that dude got turned down, but he's fine with it. (ASK YOUR SISTER WHAT YOURE MISSING :D) hahahahaha. the girl who turned him down KENA PWNED
84. Cried when someone died: Yeah, definitely. ):
85. Fallen for a friend?: and we all fall down. hahahaha, that;s the game we used to play. i dont feel like answering this question (and this does not mean the answer is absolutely a yes, im just doing this to keep ppl in suspense, so they would entertain me on msn. im just so bored, and i dont wanna do my work and no one's talking to me!!! riqa's in jakarta!!!)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: haha, i try to.
87. Miracles: THERE CAN BE MIRACLES IF YOU BELIEVE! (haha, it's a song. and i do believe in it, cause i passed my promos!)
88. Love at first sight: haha, no, i have this theory right, that love at first sight, is merely attraction. cause i dont think love can be built on just by looking at a person. that has just got to be an attraction right, just the outside. but love should be looking on the inside as well (haha, i need to believe this in order to love myself :D) hahaha, well, but there are ppl who claim it's true so, i dont know. haha, im a skeptic.
89. Heaven: OBVIOUSLY!
90. Santa Claus: NO. hahaha, why is santa claus red?
91. Kiss on the first date: hahahahah, no. definitely not. haram! hahaha
92. Angels: I BELIEVE IN ANGELS. SOMETHING GOOD IN EVERYTHIN I SEE. haha, yeah, i belive in malaikat(s) just to be specific.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: haha, i havent had one, how to have more than one at a time.
95. Did you sing today?: HAHA! yeah, with valerie wong, cause she was the only one who came for mass dance. JOHANNA!
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: hahhaha, no one to cheat on, but i would never do that.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: to the age of dinosaurs. OROR to before the spoon was invented. and invent the spoon myself. and take the money and live on a beach.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: haha, lets not talk about this. but i would like to see myself work harder in softball.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? huh? is it scary?
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: nope, i wrote the title already.

i just realise my answers are longer than necessary. like one question could be up to a hundred words. haha, i guess i like to talk about myself, but no one would listen. haha, more like NADH wont listen. she totally tunes me out man. SO this way i talk about myself without needing anyone to listen without looking like a dodobird.

IM so cool :D

SAD LIFE

I'm living waaaay to sad a life :D

HAHA! And why have i only come to realization about this now?

1) I spent an hour at mcdonalds (craving for seaweed shaker fries totally satisfied :D) all by myself. reading a book.
2) i can only play the first part of mariage d'amour because i lost the second page.
3) im coming back to school everyday of the week (so is most of the exco but dumdeedum,BUT this is about me :D)
4) out of three of my brothers three of them call me fat (EVEN THOUGH i have a healthy and normal BMI, and my hegiht and weight are a 100% compatible, i cant help but start to believe them. OH WELL, I LIKE FOOD :D)
5) and while pooping in the toilet just now, i was observing ants on the wall. apparently i have nothing to think about, so i started making up conversations among the ants and putting my own story to it as they walked about mindlessly.
6) PEOPLE tune out to everythin i say, and blame me cause they say im mumbling [its only nadh, BUT WHATEVER :D]
7) azri just came back from a so called 'date'. [this shows me how sad my life is, cause...haha, dont know why, i just wanted to fit this in somewhere]
8) part of me wanted to stay home and finish tascip stuff instead of going out for seoul garden [in the end i went to seoul garden, but i did manage to finish my tascip stuff]
9) my stuff keep getting stolen by SABRINA QUEK and PHANGZIHAN. stop stealin my stuff (if you read this -.-)
10) i keep typing my TASCIP email into every account i log into (facebook, neopets, hotmail, my other gmail..-.-)

haha, riqa would understand this. SAD LIVES on SATURDAY NIGHTS. if only people saw what sad things we do on saturdays. haha, but it's been a while, since you're in jakarta. HOPE YOURE HAVING FUN WITH THE JAILANIS!

ANYWAY, im not complaining, im kinda enjoying life as it goes now. the only thing im worried about is not being able to finish my holiday homework. PLEASE DO IT WITH ME, somebody, ANYBODY.

Moving on, i forgot to post about hafiz's graduation

HE HAS OFFICIALLY GRADUATED FROM KINDERGARTEN, i was there during his ceremony. his class put up some cute dance item, and he was really into it. he was giving his focus face like he does in guitar hero.

which reminds me, i cannot remember my kindergarten item. The only thing i remember is that, the room was really big, it was like some fancy auditorium. and there were lots of seats. and that at the end of the performance you go into this humongous room, squeeze with the other children, and they feed you chickien rice, i think.

and this made me so super nostalgic. from those totally carefree days, im here in TA with this unbelievably hectic schedule and am hardly coping and yet having fun. HOW did i get from there to here. as much as i would rathere be there, i couldnt so i might as well stay happy here :D

ANYWAY, moving along, i just watched NEW MOON.

movie was so-so. i thought twilight was better. a lot of 'i can't live without you moments' which while people found really sweet i found it a bit amusing, BUT not at what they were saying, more of how they were saying it.

ONE thing to note, i found werewolves so much better looking and hotter than vampires. SERIOUSLY, and i dont say these kind of things very often. but seriously, even their facial features seem more appealing to me.

okay, i'll stop here, before i freak the world out.

ANYWAY, the world is awesome. and neopets has loaded. BYE.

Okay, im assuring people i'm happy.

I really miss everyone. Everything about everyone, having pak anjang's family stay here made everyday interesting and everyday fun. i miss holding aleyna. she is so adorable :D this morning i woke up with the thought 'i should go down so i can carry her'

how sad is that.

and today we sent addeana off ):

ASIDE from that, there won't be new zealand people to make me smile. No hanis, ziyah and hij to crap with. No riqa to webcam with.

everyone is not in singapore ): haha, i miss tabboo.

REALISATION: i spend a lot of time with family/relatives and it;s a whole lot of fun. im definitely not complaining about spending too much time at home.

and what's up at school? one of the reasons im not in jakarta.

FILMING IS OFFICIALLY FINISHED, i hope.
Mass dance is looking good, people are starting to get the hang of Retarded.

And yet, i still feel like the most hated person on earth, by holding these sessions. mass dance sessions, filming sessions. and i don't like being hated, it;s just not a nice feeling to know that someone out there is not really happy with you.

is this considered an insecurity?

cause mami says that me being insecure could have been from a little incident that happened when i was a kid. i hope i'm telling it right.

anyway, as a kid, aged about three or four, i had this phase, where i liked to look at public toilets. DONT ASK ME WHY. and NO, i do not do it anymore. okay, so while using one, i kind fell into a toilet bowl. ouch, poor three year old me falling into a toilet bowl. since we were going into the car, and i was covered in toiletbowl water, my mum had to find something to like coat me with.

so she asked a cleaner for a plastic bag. and the cleaner gave her the black one which people usually use to throw their rubbish into, so my mum put me inside (obviously, in a non dangerous way, where my head can still be seen).

but Little Me must have panicked cause my mum said i started crying saying 'Don't throw me away, don't throw me away!'

HAHA! so maybe, since then, i've always had the feeling that people are going to throw me away.

WOW, awesome psychological analysis of oneself. i was such a cute baby, but i know i was also a naughty one. haha, and ayah called me an ugly baby (like those newborns).

OKAY OKAY! i need to sleep, i'll do a long lengthy post on NEW MOON. haha.

and, i really like NPH. HAHA. NEIL PATRICK HARRIS is LEGEND-wait for it-DARY.

YESTERDAY! was super tiring. and fun. IT WAS LIKE SOME FAMILY FUN DAY.

HAHA, i started my day with waking up at 11:45am, which is later than normal. Because usually I wake up super early. Cause i usually can't sleep back after subuh. BUT yesterday, since I couldn't pray, I just slept like some log.

So people woke me up at 11:45, saying we were going for lunch. So i woke up and bathed, everyone was shouting at me cause i was the last. I didn't really care, they're actually very funny cause when I got down, everyone was just talking calmly, and even when i got down they still didn't wanna go. They were booking movie tickets for tonight -.-

So i went to the kitchen to take some awesome cheesecake that cik julie made. OHMYGOODNESS, it was freaking awesome. if you know me, you would know i like cheese. [okay, if you really knew me, you would know that i eat and like anything...halal :D]. Right, so after that we left and ate at banquet at parkway. apparently some people wanted to eat laksa. THAT PERSON WAS ME! :D

So i had my laksa (the exact same one i got when i ate with sabs) and enjoyed it. It was like nine people, all seven of us [minus azri, but replaced by hannafi] plus mami and ayah. So after eating we went round parkway. i had to follow nadh and mami go prom-dress hunting. EVEN though i wanted to follow the kids go isetan.

and i should have just insisted going with the kids cause they managed to see the reloading nerf gun [hadi insists on calling it that]. o.o UNFAIR! and they got it...but as a birthday present to someone else. which means i still don't get to see it -.- and nashrah and maisarah did by something for themselves. IT SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME. it is some doll head thing. you're supposed to style do who knows what on the doll head's hair. i swear, if i see that thing in the middle of the night, i would freak. FREAK. so im just keeping my distance from that weird creepy doll head.

the only doll i had was a Baby All Gone, that mami got me when i was like what, 3 or 4. HAHA! I found this super cool advertisement on it. HAHA! watch watch, i had the exact same doll, spoon and milk bottle :D it really works. it worked fom about three years. but by the time i was six i knida knew how the spoon worked. BUT i still don;t know how the milk thing works.

HAHA, moving on. Then we all met at andersons ice cream, where i had um...ice cream. haha cookies and cream and belgium chocolate. then we went home.

slacked a bit then sent people to the airport. more on that later, i kinda have to go now :D

haha, cutting my hair. i think.

lets just say, i miss them a whole lot ):

SUPER WHIRLWIND LIFE, it was so long since i last blogged. I remember i was talking about rain. Which is really still happening.

ANYWAY, i think i'll go by day, then go with major events. THIS is going to be a super long post, so if you are interested and plan to read the whole thing, go tape whatever tv shows you planned to watch and go to the toilet. :D or just stop reading my blog.

MONDAY:

Wait, let me think, i kind of forgot what happened. OH YEAH, PRC tour around Singapore. I was the only malay there. and i think the locals (me, sabs, zihan, natasha, jeremy, jolin) were more excited to see singapore than the PRCs. HAHA, we were taking weird pictures around Singapore. Few awesome places we went were Singapore River, The Supreme Court (where they confiscated my spray deo in my bag. apparently it poses a threat to the lawyers there or something), Little India and we drove past all sorts of places.

THINGS I LEARNT ON THE TOUR:

1) I cannot do jumpshots for nuts
2) Jeans and beta shirt are super comfortable for walking around
3) Mami's addidas shoes arent. but my sports shoes got wet, cause it was under a potted plant. so while bibik was watering the plants, my shoes kinda got wet. haha, it was funny. now, to figure out how my shoes got under the potted plant.
4) singaporeans get excited when they go on the boat cruise on the singapore river.
5) If you wave at random tourists, they will wave back
6) zihan and sabrina are theives who take your wallet, empty it. take fifteen dollars for themselves and buy their breakfast. then they complain about me whining. HOW can i not whine with these two buggers stealing my stuff -.- they are very mean when you put them together ): HAHA, but they paid me back in the end.
7) i only whine when im around zihan and sabrina

SO the tour ended early cause it started to rain. THAT's when Sabrina, natasha and zihan crashed my house. We played guitar hero. HAHA OMG ZIHAN SANG THE MIDDLE. HAHAHAH, we actually got him to sing. then went up to the attic to watch the first part of Just Follow Law, before everyone started going home. After that i went to tanah merah and batted a bit. it's the field behind tanah merah, not really tanah merah. HAHA, cause my parents bought a bat to play rounders with :D

TUESDAY:

We started the day with mass dance. RETARDED IS STILL FREAKING RETARDED.

ANYWAY, after mass dance comes the highlight of the day. FILMING! IM AM REALLY SORRY TO THE PEOPLE WHO HAD TO STAY THERE FOR SO LONG!!! But it was fun watching people act gay. After that we went for lunch at super opposite where there was a hawker center with ONE hala stall in it :D haha, yes, i am happy :D with just opposite being renovated, it's been hard getting wholesome meals, BUT NOW, that is no longer a problem :D

So had lunch with tianli, zihan, sabrina, nicholas, steven. THEN they all went to crash our house. We spent the first few minutes slacking. WHERE I DISCOVERED. PRESIDENT IS AFRAID OF BABIES, while SABRINA REALLY LOVES THEM. haha, LOL, i just lovelovelove aleyna. After that we went up to watch just follow law (from start to end) but nicholas and tian li had to go off first. So, while i sent them to tanah merah the rest of them enjoyed bread with multiple spreads :D

I came back and we continued watching, at the end, it was already about seven, so i sent them to tanah merah, but on the way we bumped into a dodobird azri. OBVIOUSLY, since he is my BROTHER, i waved to him. he went to hide behind a freaking tree and continued walking -.- so it looks like im talking to a random person.

SO i came back. AND suddenly nadh said she, azri, cik julie and mami were going seoul garden and asked if i wanna come along. I was actually contemplating, because seoul garden is like WHOA! but there was filming the next day and i felt a bit unprepared. IN THE END, i went to seoul garden and worked through smsing people.

THANKS RACHEL for forwarding the email for me.

Haha, seoul garden was interesting. I was like slacking at first letting at fry their things and stealing them in the end. but i felt guilty so i took my own food. AND I LIKE ABUSED THEIR FREE FLOW OF ICE CREAM, i should feel embarassed at my greed and lack of self discpline, BUT IM FINE WITH IT, HAHA :D i really like ice cream. HINTHINT.

Then since i was working through smsing people, i was smsing more than usual. SO there was this point of time where all of us, me nadh and azri were smsing in the backseat. It was actually quiet funny and weird seeing all of us text people.

WEDNESDAY:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIJANAH!

Anyway, your present has yet to come. YOU just wait :D

Haha, so it was like half a day filled with filming. For some reason, it was taking longer than usual to film. SORRY FOR THE DELAY EVERYONE! Anyway, i had to cycle to school cause of filming. But in order to actually ride the bike i had to wear a helemt. WHICH i actually did :D SAFETY FIRST. So we filmed the track scenes then the seminar room 1 scenes. OVERALL, i thought it was okay. Im not much of a director person, but hopefully it will come together the way i planned it in my head.

AFTER THAT, haziyah forced me to go home, which i did. i cycled cycled home. CYCLING IS SO FUN! i wish my dad would let me do it everyday. i've been trying to convince him, but he wouldnt let. he has his reasons, which are probably for the better.

SO after tha i went home and attempted to play mariage d'amour again. I JUST CANT COORDINATE. WHYWHYWHY! Haziyah/hanis/hij finally came over. Hijanah went on a scavenger hunt to look for her present. while we all slacked. WHEN she found her present we had LEMAK CHILLI PADI for lunch. AWESOME, on of my favourite foods which hanis refers to as kuar yellow. (sp?)

AFTER THAT went to the attic for the third day in a row, to watch the ugly truth. FELL ASLEEP HALFWAY. filming was more tiring then i thought apparently. When i woke up, i continued watching and when they all left i decided to go for a run, but hadi didnt wanna come with me, so i went alone. I ran to anglican high and turned in at hassan rabit. two rounds, so about 2.8km (i think0 HOPEFULLY, but i think i was slower than usual. CAME BACK and went to batbat. HADI refused to excercise but he was slacking at the park. but i managed to get him to excercise.

Hadi: RUZANNA! SEE THIS HUGE BUTTERFLY OR MOTH THING!
Ruzanna: no -.- (but i have to say this, im impressed it was really big)
HadiL SEE
Ruzanna: I WILL ONLY GO IF YOU PIGGYBACK ME (i knew he would never do this, so this means he would leave me alone)
Hadi: Okay!
Ruzanna: o.o (at the fact that he was so desperate to get me to see the stupid insect that he would piggy back me!) SO CUTE

CAME HOME, and realised i needed the maths book. so i asked hadi to come and get it with me and cik fiza's house. Since i wasnt praying, i went to bathe while he prayed. when i finished bathing he was playing halo.

before that when i asked him haziq and hafiz wanted to go.

Me; HADI! LET'S GO!
Hafiz: Can i come?
Me: No, it's brother sister bonding time
Haziq (cute matt whose only like ten years old): we can have sister brother brother cousin bonding time.

im like o.o at his reaction.

went over got my book and came back and immediately was told to get ready to watch Fantastic mr Fox. they even prepared clothes for me. HAHA, overall i thought the movie was entertaining. MY kind of humour. :D

HAHA, im super sleepy, it's 1218 am

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI PEOPLE,
praying for everyone performing their hajj are safe and well!

RAIN

It's been raining a lot these days. and i really really like it.

sometimes, i wish i'd spend my rainy days better. most of the times it rains in the evening, while im in school. and there's no way i can lepak on my bed in school cause my bed's not there.

OKAY, a few things i love doing in while it's raining

1) SLEEP, on my bed. and then wake up to the sound of rain. feeling all refreshed
2) Just laze around on my bed, read a book, do tascip stuff and watch stuff on my tablet.
3) WALK, as in walk in the rain. AWESOME times i had in the rain. i remember in tkg i walked from the field to the G.O in the rain. i think me and cristal were studying geog in school before FYEs. and i said i would walk in the rain for two bucks. or maybe it was one buck. I DON'T KNOW, but it was fun :D awesome times.
4) Sit outside and think. about almost everything under the sun. im not that shallow a person though it may seem so. i dont really think anyone is shallow. it's just how much time they take to think about a certain thing in depth. so i dont have much time to think about it, but thinking in the rain is best.
5) Do maths till i achieve number 1.
6) sit on a bus where it's freezing cold. it's nice to endure such things.

ASIDE FROM THAT, i think after this week, the worst is over.

NOTE TO SELF: THINGS I WANT TO BLOG ABOUT

1) Hafiz's Graduation
2) My Weird Fluctuating Self Esteem
3) An Opah Says section
4) MORE RAIN

i cant think of anymore. i just wanna sleep. i am damn tired. i went to hafiz's graduation in the morning. then went to nashrah's spellcast thing. freaking tired. OMG.

SINGERS

Okay, I have made a few observations. THERE are very few people who have voices that can make you melt. when i say melt...i mean like WHOA, trickle down your spine, makes you feel warm inside. THAT kind of melt.

1) That dude who plays that prince person (i think) in the musical notre dame de paris where all the dancers at the back have abs :D im referring to the guy at 2:58 wearing the silver thing (which makes him look a tad bit gay, but HE CAN SING, WADDDDUP)



2) Teddy Geiger, okay, this is probably a short time thing. Like after a while, i'll get over him and say he's just normal. AND the first time when i actually realised WHOA, THIS DUDE CAN SING, was when i watched the Rocker, and i didnt even know it was him at first. THEN, i was like WHOA, an actor and he has an awesome awesome voice. SO i knew i had to check out who was the actor, and i found out it was teddy geiger...i was like o.o wait, isnt he a singer. AND then i reseached his songs.



3) THIS dude from the band V, which i can bet no has heard of before. BUT now you have. The guy who starts singing first, is freaking pro, somewhere in the middle. WHERE he like tarik tarik his voice (literal translation: pull, pull) and his falsetto parts. :D haha, i think hanisah choped him.



4) JIM sturgess. I've only heard him sing one thing: Girl for the intro of across the universe, a beatles-based musical. AND that was enough to like O.O MEEEEEEEELT. hahaha, like his voice is awesome, and it doesnt hurt that his accent is so...nice to listen to :D haha, awesome. JUST awesome. RIQA: MINE :D



5) DANNY JONES. no explanation needed. OKAY, I'll JUST SAY SOMETHING. His voice is damn nice and soothing and just plain nice, like it's not nasal and it's just WHOA. it. definitely. melts. Don;t get me wrong, TOM CAN SING TOO. LIKE FREAKING AWESOMELY, i love his range. BUT, danny's voice is the more soothing kind :D

TODAY

It's 2:48 am. I just ate two pieces of bread spread with butter and topped with a slice of cheese. And now i'm sad cause it's finished.

ANYWAY, today was fun.

We got back our results. I'm okay with it. SINCE WHEN in the history of o.o (that emoticon, which is my face right now) has my malay been my highest. YAY!!!

OKAY, moving on. So while walking back from the LT, there was this whole big group of people. And i was like randomly seeing if there were any TKGians. AND OMGOMGOMG CRISTAL-ANNE AND MEL WONG WERE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWW!LOL, apparently they planned on suddenly pouncing me out of nowhere, but i saw them first. LOL, i just like jumped to them and hugged them! LOL, it was super shocking (which it wouldnt have been if someone had told me -.-) AWESOME SURPRISE THOUGH

So while they were going around school playing games, in the classroom, we were all leading a blind old woman out of the class. this blind old woman aka SABS didnt wanna open her eyes, so we did all kinds of crap to her. AND after a while, i got tired so i sat down and did nothing while everyone else continued. AND YET, she was still shouting.

'RUZANNA! YOU ARE SO DEAD!'

and im like o.o

So after that whole tiring event. we went to eat instant noodles opposite school. The weather was damn cold, so it was FREAKING shiok.

So went back for meeting and then mass dance-d after that. I SWEAR RETARDED IS THE MOST RETARDED thing ever.

I came home, and played snatch with addeana, nadh and mami before going up to bathe. LOL, and then i went to eat (OTAHOTAH FTW PLEASE, im hungry, i want more) then i went up to do my work. SENDING individual emails to each actor. (LOL, not each lah) BEFORE falling asleep. I FREAKING FELL ASLEEP ON MY TABLET like for the 340384032th time. I don't know why i was THAT tired.

SO IM FREAKING SORRY I DIDNT REPLY YOUR INSTANT MESSAGES.

and here i am, awake and unable to sleep. I hope my ugly betty has finished loading. that would put me to sleep (not because it is boring, but because it doesnt involve me.) i have this theory that when i am doing something that doesn't really involve me, i would eventually fall asleep. BUT when im doing something that does involve me, i wouldn't. LIKE for example there was this period of time where we kept sleeping at hanis and ziyah and hij's house. and we would watch a movie and feel super sleepy. then we went back in the room, started talking and would feel high. then we would watch again...and the cycle repeats itself.

AWESOME though.
Today was just really really pleasant.

Of Family

Today we had a family reunion thingy at the beach. EPIC MADNESS. We played rounders which was soemthing like softball so i was super enthu about it. Though i liked sucked. I was partly obliged to come, though i had a ton of maths homework to do -.-

And i realised i love our family. It was a really needed day to unwind and chill for me. A bit of rounders, screaming.

LOL! AND OMG! HAZIQ IS A NATURAL ATHLETE. HE'S LIKE what, TEN YEARS OLD! And he plays soccer super pro-ly. AND after a few tries of batting. He managed to hit a homerun. o.o OMG, officially the cutest and my most favourite mat EVER.

And Hijanah's running was super epic. I wish there were pictures, but everyone was too busy playing, lepak-ing (or studying-.-) no one took pictures.

AND food was awesome. Drinks, even though we had to drink them from bowls, were good and refreshing. COMPANY = AWESOME. Can't wait for the actual family reunion next year. It's been 2 LONG LONG years. WONDER what we all have to do this time.

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A few weeks ago, my mum brought up a story of me when i was young that might explain my insecurity. CAUSE, if you know me well enough that you start to read me. i can get quite insecure to the extent i'll do anything just to maintain peace. Sometimes, i won't even standup for myself.

): IM WEAK.

Of Today's Discoveries

I'm talking about just today :D

And just what I discovered today. Because everyday is a learning experience. OKAY, not really for me, today i just discovered a lot of things. Usually, i'll just stone and stare and be oblivious to the world around me.

DISCOVERIES

1) Running at East Coast Park, you cover a long distance in what seems like a short period of time, though in the end it turns out to be like normal. BUT you feel really pro after that, and that's what counts. FOR ME :D

2) The gym is very interesting. Machines are built for people taller than me, so some machines feel really weird. I AM NOT A GYM PERSON, but ayah wanted to go to the gym, so i tagged along and experimented. I was going around picking up weights. Seeing how the machines work. Seeing how much I can do on a certain machine, like how much weight I can carry. BASICALLY i was like a little girl on a sugar rush.

3) Azri says I do not carry myself well. IN TERMS OF
-THE WAY I WALK
-The way i sit (okay, this i totally agree with.)
-The way I eat
-My big butt
-And the way i respond to criticism.
-and the fact that I dont care about what people think of me
-I THINK he also has a problem with me wearing my ugly comfortable sandals around too. cause they don't really match anything

All that taken in during lunch. HAHA, but it was funny enough. Cause most of it is actually true. AH, what to do. I can try AND be better (for the sake of getting a husband, according to azri), BUT no gurantees.

4) Hadi is turning into an Azri. (A) I THINK HE LIKES A GIRL. ZOMGGG. HADI, my 12-year-old, lego-loving HADI. SO PROUD OF HIM LD (B) he made some weird joke about my butt.

I was sitting on Hafiz's seat minding my own buisness.

Hafiz: Ruzanna why don't you sit beside the girl hadi likes (which was apparently there at the moment) (give HADI the keningkening) [OMG, cheeky little disgusting boy]
Hadi: (SEEMINGLY BLUSHING) The girl I like is Mummy (awww.) But i think Ruzanna's butt is big enough to be sitting beside mummy. [cause mummy was out at that time]
Ruzanna: =O (i was really shocked)

HAfiz and Hadi laughed.

Ruzanna: (turns to azri) DID YOU HEAR THAT, HE JUST MADE SOME JOKE ABOUT MY BUTT? D:<
*Azri fistbumps hadi from across the table*
Ruzanna: o.o (poor victim in this esteem crushing event)

OMG, being bullied by all my brothers at once ): LOL, but i was laughing for most of it.

5) I JUST PLOP WHEN IM TIRED AND SLEEP. PRO-NESS. and im very tired. FROM DOING WHAT, I ALSO DON'T KNOW.

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HAHA, kay, that's the story of my life.

AND I HAVE A THEORY! There have been two songs noted about people with big butts and it's positive feelings towards them.

Fat Bottmed Girls - Queen (WOOOHOOO, listened to it while i was running just now. FREAKING CATCHY SONG)
Baby Got Back (but better known as the I LKE BIG BUTTS song or the song rachel and ross sang to emma to make her laugh) - Sir Mix A Lot, i think.

And there have been NONE about skinny butts. SO I WIN AZRI. People prefer big butts :D haha, i know i should just stop talking. NOW. i bet people would look at me so weirdly the next time they see me :D

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OKAY FOCUS. MATHS and SCIP

i cant sleep. i think i might be able to after i brush my teeth and clip my fringe and off frank. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE make me be able to wake up for subuh.

What's up universe. THERE HAS TOTALLY BEEN AN UPDATE DROUGHT ON MY PART. Sorry, i;ve been really tired. and i bet none of you were disappointed. I bet right now, you just chanced upon my blog cause you're so bored from the holidays and you were THAT desperate for something to do that you came here :D

ANYWAY, things have been okay :D or at least in how i try to look at it. WHILE, YES some things seem to be falling apart ): there have been little things that have been making me happy :D BUT, life has been okay :) NO COMPLAINTS. huh, in one paragraph, i have used three different emoticons. NOT BAD.

ON another note, YESTERDAY was fun. THANKS STEVEN, SABS AND ZIHAN :D and EVERYONE WHO CAME DOWN FOR MASS DANCE. My mike wazowski looks so much nicer than an orange snoopy. OHOH, and i saw preya at parkway :D so awesome.

HEY PREYA, just know that though things have changed A LOT from sec 2 to sec 3, i bet the whole team + me will always be there for you :) WE'LL THROW SOON!

Aside from that, im trying to make myself fit by next year. and i tried dragging hadi along with me, but that dodobird refuses to cooperate. the other day, i brought him to run with me (the usual route :D) he stopped halfway, when i told him he couldnt, he just stood still. dodo. and then he laughed. haha, but i felt really fit running with him, so that was like an ego boost.

People who i dont want to run with:

1) USAIN BOLT
2) NADH

that's all i can think of, for now. there's probably more, but my brain is tired from absorbing mass dance today :D


HAHA, i just came back. I stopped blogging for three hours. AND NOW IM BACK. I went to watch 2012. AND this is random and out of topic but i keep hearing a fly or a bee or something buzzing in my ear. okay, not a bee. BUT whenever i turn around it's not there. IM STARTING to think that it;s in my ear. now im scared, cause if it gets one step near my brain, i'll die like a grey's anatomy freakshow, where weird random cases come in like everyday cases.

Anyway, 2012, is good. GO WATCH!!! now now now.

Advise my dad would probably give: pee before the movie :D

But we all know the movie is centered around the world ending, specifically in 2012. That's about two - three years from now, depends on when the thing happens in 2012. like which month and things like that.

Okay, so now, im thinking to myself, LOOK at all the things i will miss out, if the world does end in three years time (im being somewhat an optimist :D). I totally dont believe anything though scientists have pointed out that 2012 is a possibilty, i think. Because, in the Quran we're told that only God knows when the end of the world comes. as in HE is the only one who will know. So these predictions, are exactly just that, mere predictions.

But say the end is near. IM NOT SPECIFYING WHEN. BUT say it is (and hopefully it isnt), im going to miss out on a lot of things.

1) The eight month break after my a levels (IF i get promoted every year). Cause, i would be taking my A's in 2012. So if it happens right after my last A level paper. THE minute i step into freedom. i will NOT be happy.

2) I will never really see what i do in the future. because, ive always been curious on who i will be in the future. WHAT kind of person. what job i will apply for. and the rest.

3) I would never get to have an 'IN YOUR FACE' moment with azri. cause i told him that moment will come when i get married, so i'll be proving that i am capable of being liked, what more, getting married. and it would help if the person were really awesome :D

4) I would never drive. WHAT MORE drive a nice hybrid car. but i plan to use a bicycle as my main mode of transport in the future. cause, i like cycling. so i'll be cycling around.

5) I may never get to see my awesome friends, who i know are capable of big things, get all famous and rich. which means, i will never be able to nudge people and tell them 'HEY, those are my friends' and they would be in such disbelief cause they would all go, 'THERE'S NO WAY YOU KNOW THESE PEOPLE.' and i would prove them wrong by going up to them, and they would acknowledge me DESPITE their embarassment. OR, i could be one of my awesome friends :D

6) i would never get to see my now current toddler cousins, who will probably be super good looking, grow. this is just to suit my curiousity, to see whether or not they turn out the way i imagined, NOT anything else.

7) i will never get to make a speech at azri's wedding. NAH, he wouldn't let me anyway. NO LOSS THERE.

Anyway, the list goes on. and on and on and on.

AND that's when i realised. My life will not have been fulfilled. SURE, i have fun and funny stories to tell. BUT, would i be satisfied with it at the end.

And then i started remembering what almost everyone tells me. This life is merely a test. A test to see where you go in the Hereafter. You pass, you go to heaven. You fail, you go to hell. And these based on your good deeds, you wrong doings, your prayers and a lot of things.

And im scared, cause i think im failing. so once in while, if you really love me, tap me on the shoulder and remind me, it's all one BIG test. I MAY get defensive about it due to self esteem issues, BUT, youre doing what's best, and i'll be grateful eventually.

SO PEOPLE, LETS TRY! BRING ON THIS TEST WE ALL REFER TO AS OUR LIFE :)

HUH, all that depth coming from one movie. NOT BAD JOHN CUSACK :D

Of Nice People

Singaporeans are really nice. Despite some people saying Singapore is a bit artificial in a sense that we are so motivated by progress more than anything else that we tend to lack being sincere in what we do.

Also, we are under the impression that Singaporeans are filled with matts, minahs, bengs, lians, noisy makciks and aunties, pakciks and uncles. And we supposedly HAVE to belong to one of this groups if not the other.

SPECIMEN A: MYSELF :D

What group do i belong in?

MINAH? No, i dont think im capable, in a sense that, my dress style is different. and i dont think im 'cool' enough. PLUS my malay X . X

NERD? No, nerds have to be smart.

OVER-ACHEIVING, ALL ROUNDED PERSON (aka someone like cristal :D) Definitely not, im hardly acheiving person, and im not all rounded at all.

LOSER? Well, yeah MAYBE, just MAYBE i fit into this, but if i say i do, this would defeat the purpose of using myself as a specimen. SO NO! IM NOT A LOSER :D

ANYWAY, my point is, YES i used to be under the impression that we can label people JUST LIKE THAT, but since yesterday, ive decided to be less judgemental.

And due to the super long bus ride, i got to think about it a bit. So hypothetically, there's this person, she wear skinnies, tight shirts, and heavy eyemakeup. And, yes, she is malay. and being super honest here, i would immediately in my head, label her as a minah. BUT, then yesterday during the long bus ride, i thought, maybe she's a nice person, maybe she's a smart person, maybe she'll grow up to be a doctor who would find the cure for cancer.

WE NEVER KNOW!

Okay, people might be saying RUZANNA LAG! And yeah, maybe, but can YOU tell ME you dont judge people when you're, LET SAY, bored on the MRT. BORED ON THE BUS.

Well, all this was triggered by the nice people who helped me find my way to the chalet.

First, I took bus 2 all the way to Changi Village, and i didnt know how to get there. So i got stressed, and i do what any normal stressed person would do. I walked into a Cheers outlet and got myself a Crunchie bar :D CHOCOLATE PWNS STRESS. So while i was there, the woman was being very nice to me. She was telling me about the 2 for 2.20 offer. So i just went on and asked her.

Me: erm, do you know how to get to aloha changi from here? :)
Lady: Yeah, i think you walk to the Changi Village bus stop, then you cross the road, then theres a bus 29 which will bring you to the reception
Me: THANK YOU, but how do you get to the bus stop.

and she went on explaining to me. and, knowing how slow i am when it some to directions, i applaud her patience :D

THEN, moving on.

I was sitting at the bus stop waiting for bus 29. i was eating my chocolate and i was still pretty stressed out. but i was looking at the directions and saw nerathavon or something like that road. and ayah was telling me in the morning that that was the road, so i was pretty happy.

but on the opposite side, i saw a bus 29. the driver just kept staring at me. I PANICKED LIKE CRAP. Because i started thinking that, maybe no one was supposed to be on that bus stop. maybe it was like a deserted, abandoned bus stop and i just got creeped OUT. then i dont know what happened, in that five minutes, a bus 29 came and he was the driver.

i got on the bus, relieved, that it wasnt an abandoned bus stop. so i think panic was WRITTEN ALL OVER MY FACE, cause he started making conversation cause i was the only passenger there.

DUDE: tahu cakap melayu?
Me: yeah

then he went on and on, about how i could take certain buses there and stuff like that. saying that if i took bus 9, i could have arrived there straight and stuff like that :) but i started relaxing cause from the way the bus was going the place became familiar.

AND THAT WAS HOW I GOT TO THE CHALET AT 9:11, ooh, i just got the significance of the time.

AND CHALET WAS FUN, but after typing a whole post on nice people, im getting tired. i'll post about chalet another time.

WEEK!

Okay, I'm going to do a bit of self-reflection :D this whole week has been one super tiring ride. mass dance after audition after mass dance. i swear there is such a thing as accmulated tired-ness, but ayah says there's no such thing. let's go through it day by day :D

DAY 1: MONDAY!

Went to ECP with Goat, where there were the usual misadventures of Goat. we met at bedok interchange. missed the bus because of me. then went to ecp, ate breakfast at macs then went cycling! LOL, after about one hour of going round and round talking about super random things, we went bowling. THEN there were two warmup tries but, weiling thought her game started already then she took both of the warmups...LOL.

THE, after we bowled we went to parkway, but then got lost. we must have really LOOKED lost, because some woman had to tell us where to go, without even being asked. went to parkway, ate the most satisfying burger ever. then we went back to school to go for the pasir ris primary thing.

HAHA, it was funner than i thought, i learnt how to YOYO and KANGOO JUMP.

Overall, fun BUT tiring.

TUESDAY:

Had maths trail. was with sabs, smt, goat and rachel :D haha, it was fun, though we didnt win.

Afterwards we had mass dance session. SUPER MESSY! SORRY GUYS about the no speakers thing. I was sure that the world was conspiring against me. SUPER SURE.

Came home really tired. Went up to my room and slept. missed seeing aleyna that night. she is so adorable, it's been a long time since we had a baby in the house.

WEDNESDAY:

MY. FEET. TOTALLY. DIED. First, tuesday's mass dance already hurt my calves (the sign). maths trail tired out my ankles. and wednesday was COURT SHOES DAY. i have no idea, how two sized six black monsters could have ever been created by man. WHY WOULD THEY HURT MANKIND with their stupid invention. must be guys, they would never understand.

but it was fun. :D during the orientation talk we were screaming like crazy.

THURSDAY:

In the morning we had drama. LOTS of sabotage going around. SPLATSPLATSPLAT!

MASS DANCE + AUDITION = made me realise that though i was freaking tired, i love my job :D and sure, people have their doubts, but it's not as if the school is burning with me in my position. IT'S FINE :D please? hopefully?

FRIDAY

Had speech and drama. i was bassanio. aka, freaking awesome. LOL, then we had to perform, which was okay, cause it was fun. after that we had a few talks followed by auditions. NOT as funny as thursday's one, but it was still entertaining nonetheless.

SATURDAY:

Had to go for the arif budiman course in the morning. It was okay, till the point i couldn't understand. which was really very soon. HE MADE JOKES like super often and the whole audi would laugh excpet me, cause i DIDNT get the JOKE!

After that went homw, prayed, changed and went to NSRCC to bowl. Throughout the game i was trash talking with hannafi, now i know what riqa and my dad go through. LOST to hannafi by less than ten points

went back and played rounders. me nadh hannafi maisarah in one team. azri and rizuan in the other. WE TOTALLY PWNED THEM! i swear, we did.

SUNDAY!

Went for teens alive in the morning. and i start thinking why is it, right after we get out from the masjid we have 1001 and one things we plan to do, to make ourselves better muslims, but after a few meters out of the mosque we arleady start to forgrt. i should not be one of them.

then after that slacked and played rounders in the afternoon. FREAKING FUN!

I Don't Like Myself

I've been readin through several of my posts.

And I realised one thing.

I don't really like myself. Lately, I've been pissy and PMS-y and super whiny and EMO. AIYOH, to sum it up, i've been very annoying. SORRY!

I don't know what it is. Maybe its a mixture of workload and decisions and social issues. And I know some people have been doubting my capabilities on whether or not i have the capacity to become an entertainment comm head. AND being super honest, im freaking doubting myself.

When will i go back to my awesome happy days. Where the only thing that could make me cry was coach.

HAHA, and the times where when i re-read my blog and i could laugh at myself, cause im the only person who finds myself funny. But, when i read my recent posts, i sound like some emo douche. whywhywhywhywhywhy. i dont wanna sound like an emodouche.

okay, i have to get back to work :D

just squeezed in five minutes to say SORRY PEOPLE!

Of RANDOM thoughts!

Okay, a few observations I made:

1) Guys have this whole male ego thing going on. LIKE it's either their ego is humongous or they have none at all which is actually low self-esteem.

SPECIMAN A (for humongous ego): AZRI
SPECIMAN B (for humongous ego): JERK (haha, not to me, but well, affected me in a way. i really dislike him, cause im in no position to say i hate him. but i do.)
SPECIMAN C (for humoungous ego): HAFIZ

SPECIMAN A (for no ego at all, in fact has a low self esteem): HADI! i love love love this boy.

Person: HADI! you very fat now ah!
HADI: LAUGHLAUGHLAUGH! HAHAHAHA! I KNOW!
<3

In a situation where you put someone with a big ego in

Person: JERK! you very fat ah!
Predicted response of jerk: EH WHERE GOT! WHAT THE #@(*#@*#! YOU LAH! YOU YOURSELF FAT, CALL OTHER PEOPLE FAT!

THen he would write it on his blog where girls would flood his tagboard insisting he is not -.- Powers of a sweet talking jerk.

And Hadi brings it one step further:

Me: Hadi, you lost weight!!!
Hadi: hahaha, nolah! i didnt! im still the same.

Haha, isn't that nice. Well, if I give you a choice between these two guys, who would you pick. My cute little brother hadi, or jerk.

There's no specific intention of this post. But it;s just an observation. So if you are a guy with a reasonably sized ego, feel free to tell me and I will tell the whole world my theory is wrong, till then, im sticking to this.
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On other random notes, ALEYNA is so adorable. Everybody loves her. :D

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I've also been thinking I should migrate. I am pretty confident it would strengthen my faith in Islam, and id really like that. It seems that places where Muslims are a minority, their faith seems really strong. I don't know why it's just based on what i see and perceive, it's not necessarily true. and i AM super appreciative that SIngapore accepts us and we have been accepted as part of the norm, i think what i'm looking for is the experience. just maybe a short trip to see what it's like to be a minority. i WANT to be a better person, but with everyday distractions, it's really hard.

I think it would help :D

Islam is so awesome.
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Aside from that, I've been spending my days of the previous week, doing lots of Ecomm stuff. Even though Riqa was here, and I had to balance between her and work, though she makes it seem i prioritize work over her. which is partially true. and mass dance sessions are fun :D

im getting used to the sign. and speedy and sclub are just classic you know :D next week, is another stress week, before it some to the end. i feel like throwing.

And throughout Riqa's stay here, she has been insisting it's going to be my turn soon (haha, i think only riqa and haziyah would geddit) REASONS WHY IT'S NOT GOING TO BE MY TURN SOON!

1) im freaking busy
2) im not looking for one
3) azri says im not capable of having one. and he is brutal but most of the time he is telling the truth. 4) hahaha, i cant find a person who would find all the things i do...erm...acceptable.(falling, tripping, falling into drains, screaming HOTEL CALIFORNIA in the middle of nowhere)

I AM A FLAMMABLE (wth) QUIZ IN THE MORNING BEFORE I BATHE!

Rules:
1) Answer the ones below and add up the numbers.
2) If you got a certain number, look for the word representing the number and repost this tag as " I am a _____."

i'm not going to put X's because

1) im so sick of XXX and trying to come up with Xwords. STILL LOVE ORIENTATION THOUGH! ORIENTATION 10 WILL PWN!
2) This is not an algebraic equation
3) my name starts with the letter R, so i shall put R instead.


[R] - You like cheese. (AWESOME)
[ ] - You hate peanuts.
[R] - You agree that this quiz is random. (VERY RANDOM)
[R] - You have farted today. (im sorry, but i did. THIS does NOT mean i did it in OBS!)
[R] - You have choked on something.
[R] - You are a writer. (of compositions :D)
[ ] - You smoke
[R] - You like to swim. (but i haven't in a long time)
[ ] - You have farted more than once today.
[R] - You like ice cream. (I JUST HAD IT!)

TOTAL SO FAR = 7

[R] - You have lied more than 10 times (im thinking about times i TRICKED shermin, saying i was going to move to Dubai and other things. hahahah)
[ ] - You are an only child. (HAHA)
[ ] - You have more than 3 pets (im not going to count my siblings, i feel nice today)
[R] - You prefer water to other drinks (other drinks have weird after feelings to them)
[ ] - You are an alcoholic.
[R] - You are under 20 years old.
[ ] - You are over 30 years old.
[ ] - You have a boyfriend/girlfriend (RIQA WISHES MY TURN WOULD COME, but i think the world is not ready for that. IM NOT ready for that)
[ ] - You like jewelry (pffft)
[R] - You like the music genre rock. [WHOOO! nickelback is awesome. queen and adam (glamrock :D)]

TOTAL SO FAR = 11

[ ] - You weigh more than 140 lbs (how much is that o.o, i shall just think im not)
[R] - You like pirates (JOHNNY DEPP! CAPT JACK SPARROW. YES I LOVE PIRATES)
[R] - You like anime (i used to watch Samurai X on AXN with Nadh and Azri almost everyday. and there IS a difference between SAMURAI X and SAMURAI JACK)
[R] - You are a fangirl/fanboy of something (im sorry MCFLY'S NEW ALBUM IS AWESOME, and SIMPLE PLAN is STILL FTW)
[ ] - You take a prescription drug every day.
[ ] - You have a job.
[R] - You live with your parents.
[R] - You like to eat eggs (WHEE! HADI MAKES ME EGGS)
[R] - You have a religion/ you believe in a God (I AM A MUSLIM and i believe in Allah s.w.t :D)
[R] - You dress stranger than other people (well judging by the length of my skirt. as well as the fact that riqa and amirah had to intervene when i wanted to go out with them)

TOTAL SO FAR = 18

[R] - You have had diarrhoea in the past 2 weeks (WOULDNT RIQA KNOW!)
[R] - You have eaten something odd before (I tried snails.)
[R] - You are bad at math (booo)
[R] - You love electronics (FRANK and FRANK the PSP which died)
[ ] - Someone/something has pissed you off in the past week.
[ ] - You curse a lot (im assuming dodobird is not a curse)
[ ] - You believe in aliens.
[R] - You play video games (GUITAR HERO PWNS!!! and death jr and sims 3)
[R] - You have low self-esteem. (according ti my SLPI quiz. and you cant BLAME me. i have AZRI)
[ ] - You carry a purse when you go out (nope i tompang people's bags)

TOTAL SO FAR = 24

[ ] - You like flowers.
[ ] - You are bisexual or homosexual.
[ ] - You are a Capricorn or a Scorpio.
[ ] - You have used tarot before.
[ ] - You believe in ghosts.
[ ] - You believe in horoscopes.
[ ] - You thought some jokes you read today was really funny.
[x] - You have gotten some riddles right (YEAH! hahahaha)
[x] - You have gotten in/came close to being in a fist fight (i used to fight with nadh and az everyday. it was freaking violent)

TOTAL SO FAR = 25

[ ] - You like fire.
[ ] - You have fainted or passed out before.
[ ] - You have a high school diploma.
[ ] - You used to live in America.
[ ] - You use hand sanitizer a lot.
[ ] - You consider yourself a nerd.
[ ] - You have tried chewing tobacco.
[ ] - You are a conspiracy theorist.
[ ] - You sleep in the nude.

TOTAL SO FAR = 25

[R] - You have imagined yourself being famous (cause that's the only way id probably meet mcfly, simple plan or hugh jackman)
[R] - You own a stuffed animal (WOOHOO! i own bears, PENGUINS, ducks, eeyore)
[R] - You like watermelon (but i do not like carrying them around)
[ ] - You used to live in Europe (ive never been further away than indonesia)
[ ] - You have a fetish for something
[R] - You fidget a lot.
[R] - You agree that this quiz has nothing to do with anything.
[ ] - You won't re-post this quiz.
[R] - You have your own personal computer and don't share one (FRANK!)
[R] - You have a brother (three to be specific)

TOTAL SO FAR = 32

[R] - You can cook well (im just going to put this here, cause i make awesome eggs. and i know how to make epokepok with the help of opah. and i can make MAGGI!)
[ ] - You like to party.
[R] - You are a bad dancer (proven by mass dance)
[ ] - You are a professional dancer.
[R] - You have crossed paths with a black cat.
[R] - You have a friend that you think are crazy.
[R]- You have under 10 good, close friends.
[R] - You are anticipating your answer to this quiz (im thinking about weather or not i really am, honesty is the best policy)
[R] - You have run away from something (azri -.-)
[R] - You have watched the movie: "X Men 3".

TOTAL SO FAR = 40

[R] - You like to mix soft drinks together. (GULP!)
[R] - You have done an odd experiment (yesterday's physics 'experiment'
[R] - People have stared at you oddly in public (i dont see how it is my fault i fall a lot. or trip on CLEANING in PROGRESS signs)
[R] - Your grandmother(s) are still alive (:D)
[ ] - You have a step-mom or dad.
[ ] - You hate to be tagged.
[ ] - You have been a member to soompi for under 3 months.
[ ] - You have a soompi addiction. You come here at least twice a day.
[ ] - Your hair is (dark/)brown. (TOTAL BLACK MAN!)
[R] - You love to eat candy (mentos addiction)

TOTAL SO FAR = 45

[R] - You have dressed up for Halloween (okay, fine it was be yourself day. i dont see the difference)
[ ] - You love cats (when i was young i used to be scared of them. now im okay :D)
[R] - You have a quirky personality (im assuming it's a nice way of saying im weird)
[ ] - You are a coffee addict (no, i cant even stand the smell)
[R] - You live near a body of water (my neighbour has a pond :D)
[ ] - You have had a toothache.
[ ] - You currently have to go to the bathroom.
[R] - You like reading others' comments on this quiz
[ ] - You are a vegetarian/vegan.
[R] - You use the term: "Epic Fail".

GRAND TOTAL = 50

Results:
0-25 = A spaceship.
26 = Corn.
27 = The Chosen One.
28 = A donkey.
29 = Flashlight.
30 = Weed.
31 = Stalker.
32 = Poodle.
33 = A turd.
34 = Pacifier.
35 = Chili.
36 = A continent.
37 = Bamboo.
38 = A Nissan Skyline.
39 = Pedophile.
40 = A rather large and smelly fish.
41 = Parachute.
42 = Mob of angry sheep.
43 = A clone of yourself.
44 = A mortified chocolate deer antler.
45 = Pincushion.
46 = Toilet seat.
47 = Ninja.
48 = Psycho passion fruit.
49 = Yellow snow.
50 = Flammable.
51 = A poison Easter basket.
52 = A dirty diaper.
53 = Mammary gland.
54 = A moose humping a guardrail.
55 = An illegal immigrant.
56 = Tofu.
57 = Microscopic testicle fuzz.
58 = Staple gun.
59 = Tail feather.
60 = A white rapper.
61 = A shotgun shell.
62 = Sexy as hell.
63 = A popcorn fart.
64 = A rusty, herpes infected needle.
65 = Fortune cookie.
66 = Barack Obama.
67 = Chinchilla.
68 = Weapon of mass destruction.
69 = An epic failure at everything.
70 = Sweat.
71 = Naughty nymphomaniac.
72 = Bicycle tire.
73 = A semi-proportionate and anonymous fish scale.
74 = The Bubonic Plague.
75 = Turkey.
76 = Amoeba.
77 = A lice-infected hobo.
78 = The ruler of all evil.
79 = Horny toad.
80 = Fairy Godmother.
81 = Tuba.
82 = Anorexic llama capillary.
83 = Moldy snot.
84 = Miley Cyrus wannabe.
85 = Doppelganger.
86 = Future porn star.
87 = Unnatural disaster.
88 = Statistical database.
89 = Genital lice.
90 = Rocket launcher.
91 = Ruby vomit.
92 = Maggot.
93 = Selfish antagonistic poofing cat.
94 = Pudding.
95 = A gravy train.
96 = Santa Claus.
97 = Paris Hilton's big toe.
98 = Decaying insect corpse.
99 = Blood bank.
100 = Freak of nature and humanity

Of My First Love

I need help.

I've been in love with the same thing for too long. Sure, it has been a rocky relationship, and it has ended pretty abruptly, and this whole year, ive been missing him. And sometimes it seems like I love him more than he loves me, but sometimes, im okay with it :D

And the problem is, I haven't really moved on. And I used something else as a rebound, and it isn't working.

If you haven't figured, I'm in love with softball. TKD, is my rebound boy, and honestly, it isn't working out. I actually felt i was cheating on softball!

After watching 500 Days of Summer, I realise that im in the same situation as that dude. I only remember the good things about softball and sometimes I just forget how much tears i shed, and ALL the times I felt like quitting. The times, i felt i had no time for anything else or all the 'shunned' times.

I just remembered the awesome muscle aches. The feeling of fitness. Shouting to myself for motivation. I mean, how can you not love it.

But that's gone. I was forced to leave it. But it seems I love it even more now that it's gone. Theres an MJ effect to it.

So, now I should focus on moving on. Problem is, to what? WHAT can replace the time i spent on softball. TKD, is just not my type. I need something that takes up my time, makes me hate it and at the same time love it :D Makes me fit. Makes me sweat. Makes me happy. Makes me get muscleaches after every training. Physically challenges me.

But the one thing that can't change would be the people. There would always be an up to softball because I love my teammates :D and even though there was the time i wasnt part of the team, i still felt like i belonged. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. cheesy, cliche but true.

But it's okay, i'll still meet softball in my spare time. Whether its just throwing it around with nadh, or going to ECP with my teammates

AND DO NOTE: I SUCKED AT IT...big time. sucked. totally sucked.

HAHA, i dont feel like moving on, but i guess i have to.

SO YEAH! Basically;

WANTED
FUN ACTIVITY THAT:
MAKES ME SWEAT
HAVE MUSCLE ACHES
RELEASES ENDORPHINS
AND MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE AGAIN (kidding)

FEMALE SURVEY

FEMALE SURVEY
DON`T CHICKEN OUT GIRLS!

Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAH! NO! it has something to do with a robot and a bunch of other random stuff. if you can guess my password without hacking into anything i'll give you a million bucks :D [one try only -.-]

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?

LOL, be in mcfly or simple plan :D or do a bunch of cool things. I DONT KNOW :D

Are you a girly girl?
HAHAHA! i'll let haziyah/riqa/hanis/hijanah answer that. but i think the answers would be along the lines of NO. haha, judging by the number of times opah says "RUZANNA! you are a girl. GIRLS cannot sit like that."

Big or small purses?
NO PURSES! i just tompang people's back or use pockets :D

Do you enjoy drama?
i used to watch indonesian dramas with opah. i think that's as dramatic as it's going to get. MINUS riqa/hanis/ziyah drama. those are really dramatic. AND RIQA! i wont have a turn soon :D

Did you dress up on Halloween?
NOPE. i dressed up for be yourself day last year. as INDIANA JONES/STEVE IRWIN

Do you call anybody by their last name?
NOPE. okay some really random people, but aside from that no, because if you think about it, they'd be calling me my dad

How many guys will read this just because it says "FEMALE SURVEY"?
NONE! hahaha, i dont think any guys would wanna know what i write here

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
the first question should be 'can you put on mascara?' and the answer to that would be no. i've never tried, but if it's anything like eyeliner then NO WAY MAN! hijanah paid me two bucks just to test eyeliner on me. I CRIED. hahaha.

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
HAHAHAHHA! maybe :D

Do you think you're pretty, honestly?
NOPE :D

Eyeliner or mascara?
eyeliner makes me cry...or that might just be hijanah putting it on for me. BUT ID RATHER NONE! waste of time.

American Eagle or Hollister?
what's that. it sounds like a motorbike. i would want a harley :D VROOOOOOOOOOM super loudly

Heels or flats?
SANDALS :D

Skirts or jeans or dresses?
JEANS. but i remember when i was young i would cry when my mum made me wear jeans cause i thought they were super uncomfortable. and i would insist on wearing my home sleepy pants.

Straight or curly hair?
MY HAIR :D (hahaha, yes i just kembang-ed. NEXT STOP KEMBANGAN!!)

Hoops or dangling earrings?
NONE! MEOW

Have you ever had your heart broken?
i dont think so.

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
Dark. I think, hugh jackman and sylar all have black hair. i think sean wright's natural colour is black

Do you have a best friend?
best friendS :D

Do you like your life?
Yes! but it would be much better if you add in a bit of softball in it :D

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
hahahahaha. only CRISTAL would know

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
NOPE. im not that clumsy

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yeah, i do that when im angry with ANY of my family members. crycrycry then sleep.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
HAHA! ive ever not been able to get work off my mind. SUCKS

Do you ever wish you were famous?
LOL! yes. i wish i was famous cause i discovered a cure for cancer. OR acheive world peace. :D

IN A BOY

Preppy or Punk/both?
PREPPY + PUNK = PRUNK! Must be happy, but it wouldn't hurt if he listens to simple plan :D

Contacts or Glasses?
does it matter :D

Good cook or take you out a lot?
GOOD COOK! i swear, i need someone who can make things other than epok-epok, instant noodles and eggs. :D please :D i like spaghetti, laksa and ayam lemak chilli padi

Funny or Serious?
FUNNY :D like barney/chandler/joey funny

Cute or Hot?
i still dont know the difference

Long or short hair?
short. unless you're danny jones and you pull actually pull off that long-ish hair

Smoker or non-smoker?
NON SMOKER!!! theyre shortening their lives!!! pleaseplease, if you smoke a) DONT cause it's killing you. b) its not cool. c) if youre those people at the bus stop who just breathe out the smoke into people's faces, please don't. i have a history of asthma!

Tall or short?
taller than me :D but wouldnt that be easy to find. see, short people have more choices

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
i dont have a best friend of the opposite sex. what more one that likes me. HAHA, more like no one from the opposite sex likes me! tabboo, totally ruined my self esteem.

If you ever want to live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine, would you do it?
LOL! how you snort cocaine?? but riqa says its okay to smoke weed!

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
i would just swallow a bunch of pills and make it painless death, rather than face the saw deaths.

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friend?
IT COULE HAVE BEEN LAST NIGHT at the ID photo booth, but hijanah didnt want. LOL it was at the airport

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
YES. C_ _ CH haha, softballers can guess

On average what do you think you cry about the most?
Last year, it definitely had to be softball. ESPECIALLy the whole dinner thing. and the whole lazy thing and so many more

Who was the last guy you talked to?
AZRI. he was being damn mean and crushing my self esteem. BOOOOOOOOOO!

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
NO :D

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
HAHA. YEAH. I held riqa's hand in the MRT cause the pole looked disgusting and it was far awat from us. and i knew i would fall, during the jerk of the MRT so i just grabbed on riqa's hand. so she did mean a lot, cause i didnt get hurt because of her :D

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
YES. i have boosted the ego of many :D

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
1) BBBC
2) SOFTBALLERS
3) TJ cohort!!! 1b, tascip, malay class, NU and a lot of other people
4) 2/1

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
LOL, if you consider shouting at each other, while playing tabboo, super competitively a deep conversation, then, it would be just now,laying tabboo

Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
SOFTBALL! hahah after training they locked the toilets already so i changed behind recycling bins. i made sure no one was there!

Are you going anywhere next summer?
hahaha, what summer. SINGAPORE HAS NO SUMMER!

Are you shy?
Riqa says sometimes yes. NOT CONSIDERING WITH MALAYSIAN COFFEE BEAN PEOPLE. they were so uncomfortable to talk to. i still think no, im not shy.

Are you talkative?
haha, yeah. i am. but no one actually listens. according to nadh, when i talk its like im having a monologue cause she's not paying attention

Do you secretly like someone?
YES...hugh jackman. would you consider it a secret

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
SUPER YES MEOW

How is life going for you right now?
very nice. a bit stress, but very nice. till next week when i get my results

Do you trust people easily?
NO...according to riqa.

Do you give out second chances easily?
i dont need to give out second chances. i dont think anyone has lost their first chance with anything related to me. SOUNDS SUPER WEIRD

Do you smile a lot?
HAHA! i just asked riqa, she said YES. but i think it freaks people out. especially babies at the MRT station

One thing you're looking forward to?
TOMORROW. TOMORROW. I LOVE YA TOMORROW. it only a few hours away.

How do you feel about change?
AWESOME, if it's for the better

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
YES. i remember i was super pissed at nadh and i cried. forgot about what. hahahaha, so drama.

Last time you got a text message and smiled?
Hijanah when she smsed me she fell down. i laughed.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
i dont think ive let anyone go. ive had never anyone to begin with. -.- dodobird

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
IM OKAY WITH BOTH. i would go crazy without one. i need my time alone. last year it was definitely the long bus ride taking bus 10 to simpang

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?

YES. OBS BABYYYYYYYYY!

First person to text today?
LOL! goat, replying my message 8 hours later.

RIQA : Ruzanna bought a one way ticket to Paya Lebar and she ain't coming back for some time now. HAHA ! Eh, I just realised that i'm a very nice person. I'll always try to help Ruzanna by boosting her ego but nooooooooooooooo, she'll always say something to bring herself right back down. Pffft. Anyways, she has finally reached the semi-final / final episode of Boys Over Flowers :D aaaaaand LMH totally disappointed me today D: but on a happier note, Hijanah and I can speak Korean (Hanguk) ! HOHOHO ! RUZANNA ROCKSZXZXZXZXZX !! We ♥ F1 Redbull Carbonated Drink !!

Saving Private Ryan

Saving Private Ryan is freaking awesome. And i might be considered slow, based on the fact that it was released in like 1998, making the movie eleven years old, BUT IT DOESNT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH WHEN IT WAS RELEASED.

To have a movie make me cry in a bus, WOW. And i liked it. it triggered all the right emotions. and you get so into it. that when someone dies you just feel freaking sad.

is it me, or am i starting to realise i like political/war/historical movies. first it's kite runner, now THIS. my dad recommends flags of our fathers and letters from iwo jima.

anyone wanna watch me, you may get to see me cry.

and mind you, i dont cry around people a lot. i think this would be my third time.

okayokay.

Hijanah mention: HIjanah, does not get easily fooled. AHEMAHEM.

Hijanah mention 2: her malay is so pro, she only needs 10 days to study :D

IN KL

Hey everybody :D

In KL now, so i havent been receving your sms-es. SORRY! and just now i was online but i wasnt really there, was slacking downstairs being surrounded by oh-so-adorable babies :D

I totally love them. And the way Seth thinks of the world reminds me of how kenneth thinks of the world, the muppets thing.

Anyway, promos are over, even though part of me thinks i dont deserve to celebrate, the other part says AH SCREW THAT, CELEBRAAAAAAATE GOOD TIMES, COME ON!

And since im in KL, wheeee. im celebrating like nobody's buisness...with FOOD. so many things which arent halal in singapore are halal here :D LIKE YAY.

Anyway, Riqa's doing something for her dad now, just thought i'd squeeze in a post for those non-existent people who read my blog everyday :D

and now, i feel like doing a quiz. took the first one i saw on FB.

1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
LOL, the only thing i remembered doing in the morning was, pooping, taking my wudhu' and praying.

2. When was the last time you met someone new?
YESTERDAY!AT THE BBQ! KAN RIQA? someone totally NEW.

3. When did you last eat pizza?
last thursday, i think. bibik's homemade pizza. it's freaking awesome

4. Do you drink beer?
NO! HARAM! tsktsk

5. Do you wash your own clothes?
hahahahahahaha, skip

6. What do you want more than anything?
World peace. especially in the middle east.

7. Are you tired?
NOPE. PUMPED, to do OUR MISSION :D/PROJECT

8. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
MY BED! hahaha, aside from that, FRANK JR, my softball. play with it while i study.

9. Pepsi or Coke?
AnW ROOT BEER

10. Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
LOL, i wouldnt know. nothing even close to this has happened to me before.

11. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
NO! i have none of each :D

12. Taco Bells or Macdonalds?
TACO BELLS. i think, i remembered trying it when i was young. i remembered really liking it. always ate it with amirah adilah hanisah haziyah hijanah and the rest :D GOOD TIMES.

14. How many ex boyfriends/girlfriends do you have?
NONE :D the world's not ready for that :D and so am i.

15. Is your computer desktop or a laptop?
FRANK. TABLET

16. How many friendster views do you have?
Friendster, ive never had friendster.

17. Want to be a prince/princess?
NOPE. i wanna play softball.

18. Do you believe dreams come true?
YEAHYEAH! there was the cracked tablet thing, and the waking up for subuh thing. THERE's LIKE SO MANY DREAMS COME TRUE for ME

19. Last song you heard?
Super Trouper - Abba, LOL, you cannot believe how many people love this and sing this CONSTANTLY, but it's FUN

20. Last person that called you?
Ayah :D

21. Last person that msg-ed you?
Wheeling i think

22. Anyone you've been thinking about alot lately?
YA! Sean wright, im bound to think of him when i on my tablet. CAUSE it's like the first thing i see :D

23. What was the last thing you ate?
BRIYANI BABY :D

24. What were you doing before this?
Slacking downstairs with babies and adults, COOL BODOH

25. What is the closest item near you that is blue?
The lights in Riqa's router

26. Who was the last person that has been mean to you?
Azri. HANDS DOWN azri. he says i wont get married and live alone. haha, along with other things. MEAN. but he said he loves me. hahahaha, i bet youre wondering how i got that out of him.

27. What was the last present you receive?
:D LOL, during my birthday. I REMEMBER A BIG PENGUIN AND A BIG WATERMELON

28. What is ur fav website?
www.awesome-stuff.blogspot.com.
NEXT STOP. KEMBANGAN. BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEPBEEP.

29. Whose house were you at last night?
KAK DIANA, having bbq with family + stranger (HAHAHA)

30. What do you wear more, jeans or Hot pant?
SWEAT PANTS. im wearing my seluar tidur (sleeping pants) now. theyre like some batik print things which are so comfortable.

31. What is the last movie you watched?
TODAY. Surrogates. i fell asleep :D

32. Do you think you're fat?
LOL, after hearing it from azri like dont know how many times a day, it's hard not to

33. Do you feel hungry?
nope, briyani was filling

34. Where's your favorite place to be?
some beach somewhere, slacking. not singapore beaches. LIKE redang or tioman. it;s just WHOA there

34. Last place that someone scolded/screamed at you?
hahahahaha.

35. Were you sad?
LOL, a bit from number 32 and 26. LOL

36. What is your fav food?
Theres so many. there's like lemak chilli padi, laksa, lasagna, spaghetti and it goes on :D

37. Who was the last person who asked you out?
LOL, nobody :D

38. Will you make out with girls?
tsktsktsk. NO

39. Are you happy with where you are?
LOL, its okay. im not sad :D

40. Do you believe that you can change someone?
NOPE

41. What are you going to do after you do this survey?
MISSION PROJECT

POSTPROMOS MEOW

i am exhausted, but today was super fun :D

IT IS THE END OF PROMOS BABY!

AND PEOPLE! I'LL BE GOING TO KL TOMORROW, SO IF YOU NEED TO URGENTLY TELL ME SOMETHING, by 8:30 tomorrow kay :D LOL, hahahaha, but i'll still be online like really often, so you can tell me then.

anyway, i am super sleepy now, but i'll use this post to remind me to blog about a certain observation i have.

HIJANAH MENTION: did you know hijanah was mean in her first primary school? (based on one experiecne she told me about) bet you didnt.

it IS fun mentionining hijanah on my blog.

i got pwned by circumstances a few days ago
i got pwned by hafiz yesterday while me azri and nadh were trying to pwn him. it was super freaky.

Okay, today was not as bad as yesterday, hopefully it's the same result wise. NO actually, i hope all my results can make it. Just short blogging before i revise for maths paper 2 :D

ANDANDAND TAG REPLIES<>

AYEshah: haha! thanks for the wishes for promos. LOL, i need it...badly! haha, and i dont think youre gna balloon up. FOOD IS AWESOME by the way :D ahaha, i just wanna eat a lot...LOL, that sounds disturbing. haha kay never mind! all the best for O's :D

HIJanah: i said i'd try to mention you dodo. and i tried! but unless you wanna fit into the context of me being sad for promos and food, theres nothing i can do. but i'll try now. hahaha kay.

'I like to eat. OH and by the way, hijanah likes pizza :D'
'im scared for promos. and by the way, hijanah is scared of being boncet :D i honestly dont know how to spell that'

and today's hijanah mention: hey did you know that 14 people called hijanah _________________ :D

CHEM. PAPER. MURDERED. ME.

physics and bio were hard, but i thought it was better than chem. chem killed me. and i didnt have enough time to even TRY to kill it.

and my mind's in a mess now, a bit depressed and tired after science.

OKAY, but forgetting that tomorrow is humanities and maths. im okay with humanities, now is just the memorizing stage. INSYALLAH, i can finish that. and maths, im just gonna do it! obviously refresh my memory on a few topics tonight.

HOPEFULLY, i can ace this.

Nothing like TA to make you feel stupid.

400 :D

it's my 400th post. and to not waste it, i'll just say one thing and that get back to studying.

i love my parents :D

AND i will try not to stress again tonight. all three sciences account to just one grade. let's make that grade an awesome one, so mummy and ayah's efforts won't go to waste.

PLEASEPLEASE! :D

Of Cheesy Things that Go Inside My Head Before Every Major Exam!

"Ruzanna, you have to focus. This is the final lap for promos. And though it seems you are losing speed and everything, think about it as you never had speed and now all you're doing is trying to catch up with the rest and once you do that you ATTEMPT to sprint. And if you dont make it, as long as you know you attempted, and tried your best, you're fine. And Ruzanna, love yourself :D

Also, you know there will always be people who love you even at the end of it. They may love you less though depending on your grades :S But don't think about it. Just do it for yourself. And it's always nice to think there's always God who you can seek help from, and he'll be there for you <3

But, TRY...and stop losing focus."

-Cheesy Things that are going on in Ruzanna's mind

Now you all know what im thinking of when i stone between studying. and people have a hard time believing that i study. BUT I DO OKAY! i try, at least. i may not be the brightest in my family, but i hope im okay enough.

I DONT KNOW! GAAAAAAAAAH! i should just focus on my promos now.

it's too late to ask myself why i didnt study earlier ):

okay,

"Work hard, play hard, pray hard!'

- Anonymous. (I REALLY can relate to this)

OKAY, GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE!

this includes EVERYONE. AS LONG AS YOU'RE TAKING AN EXAM AT THIS POINT OF TIME, YOU HAVE MY WELLWISHES!

because i know the feeling when you dont do well, and i dont think anyone should have to go through with that, unless that person will come out stronger in the end, right right?

OK GOOD LUCK! :D

TKG sec four people are having their last day tomorrow ):

last year, i cried. and that was just two years in tkg. no doubt, the best two years of my life. who knows what could have happened if i stayed another two years. but im not going to ask myself that, cause i made the choice to go and i'll live with it.

and TA's not that bad. ive been making a lot of awesome friends. then this way, since i know id never lose my friends in tkg cause they're the bomb, im widening my circle of friends. you guys are great, i love you all :D EVERYONE who manages to live with me, deserves a pat on the back :D

im feeling a bit high from physics. cause i dont understand it, OH WELL!! WHAT TO DO.

and i realised i like all the sciences when i understand them, i lovelovelove the feeling when i actually UNDERSTAND, problem now is, i dont understand. boooooooo!

and and now my right shoulder hurts when i breathe, im gna google it now, to make sure its nothing, which it probably isnt. just to be safe. because the pain is pretty sharp. the last time i had it was when i was holiday-ing in some island, forgot which. HAHA, okay, i'll google now.

if you want you can help me google and sms, cause im looking at it and it seems like a lot ):

OH.MY.DONUT!

Hafiz was dancing XD it would probably be one of the most adorable things you would ever see, i swear, it is freaking cute >.<

im in the attic now, turned it into my studying realm of awesomeness, quite productive as compared to downstairs.

on another totally random unhealthy note, my love for food is going from bad to worse...evidently from my awesome weight and constant eating, i love, savour and enjoy food :D but this is bad. cause food is just supposed to be something that fills my stomach, and how i appreciated the fasting month to constantly remind me of that. now that its over and hari raya mood kicks in, you stuff yourself with all the kuihs and your brother starts complaining that your butt is squishing him in the car -.- EVIL, but i cant disagree with it.

is it disturbing that i find that food makes me happier than people? ): don't get me wrong people make me happy too, but i like food :D and it makes me happier.

then i'd have to look for a person who constantly makes me happy :D cause as much as i love my family, they cant CONSTANTLY make me happy right right? and my friends have lives, LOL they cant be going around sms-ing nice stuff to me all day, to ensure my constant happiness, i wonder who can?

any volunteers? :D you can be someone who face food problems too! then we can both assure each others constant happiness so both of us dont die of clogged arteries :D rightright, though i highly doubt anyone would face such a weird problem. i might be the only one o.o food problems make it sound like im aneroxic or something, which i am totally not. im not haziyah :D

this post disturbs me a bit. oh well, i literally wrote what i was thinking of. and, this, was honestly what i was thinking of :D

random but true :D

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